TheMaster

I went 2 months sober.

I saw how empty life was, for me.

So I dove right back in.

Sugah

It took me 34 years to empty out my life. Almost six years later, I'm still in the process of filling it back up.

Patience, grasshopper.

Peace & Love,
Sugah

deezaldog

Just keep coming back. I have a real appreciation for how you are feeling. But it will get better if you give it a chance. Keep trying. lol

Pinkcuda

Life for an alcoholic is empty. That's one of the reasons we drink. It fills a void we have in our lives and when we quit the void is still there. Only we can't run and hide inside a bottle. Some return to drinking and some find another way to complete their lives so we aren't dependant on alcohol.
There are other ways to complete an empty life. Find one or drink.
Those that don't find a way and don't drink either are doomed to mysery.

Tommyh

I tryed to fill the void with booze,drugs and women

darn near died too
ain`t enough booze,drugs or women to fill it

lizw

Who are you apologizing to? Us or yourself?

And I’m saying this with kindness but it makes no difference to me whether you drink or not….

Makes a huge difference to me, if I drink though!

Texasblind

I really needed this today. Thank you.

CarolD

Well...
Your 38 ...I assume you drank longer than 2 months.

While 2 months is a beginning .... it's certainly not
long enough to find the joy of solid recovery.
For me...
that started when I began working my AA Steps

Climb back out of that bottle
start over ...you are worth the fight.

maloneshawn32

Been there, done that and got the T-shirt. Don't sweat it,just work on getting there. Your life only feels empty if you don't fill it with anything. I know, I was the same way. Find an activity or two to fill your time, and try to surround yourself with positive people. I am pulling for you, just one minute at a time, you can get there.

Shawn

Peter

Life for me was never more empty than when I was drinking. Whatever you think you will find in a bottle i don't think it is there.....

RufusACanal

Welcome back. Now, if you are ready, let's get down to basics. Get a Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous; the best place to do so is at a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous! Visit a meeting, introduce yourself, listen to others and ask for phone numbers and finally purchase the book. The cost is less than ten bucks and this book is the instruction manual for a New Life and freedom from booze. If I can help, PM me.

Ron

catlovermi

The secret for me was to find people whose lives and spirits truly had what I wanted. Then I hung around them and opened up to them, to learn what they did, how they lived. It was more than observation, though, it was a willingness to open up myself to them and interact with them as mentors, and a willingness to do new things.

dancinggirl

There's something about that two month mark for me, too!! I went back in, but not completely. There was nothing "better" for me drinking... I got sick, cried a lot, felt like crap.

Today I cleaned the house and played with my kids....sober. Much more productive and fulfilling. Now if only I could remember that getting near another 2 month mark...

vegibean

I barely made it 30 days my first time around. Keep on keepin' on!!!!!

22NGONE

The Master,

Well what I have learned is it took a long time for me to get where I am today and it will take a long time for me to get better. It has... slowly... been getting better, I still have to resist the urge to isolate myself though. You didn't mention if you went to A.A. but you should and you should keep going back. Get a sponsor, go to as many meetings as you can and work the steps as you and your Sponsor see fit. I know it sucks to hear "be patient" and "it takes time" but it's true and YOU can do it.

Much love,

John

TheMaster

I've done AA and all that. As for apologizing, it was to myself.

I am not drinking, tonight. Last night wasn't all that great...

I barely remember posting this. I guess the "magic" is gone, forever.

CarolD

Hmm...
I absolutely know in 2 months
there is no way you could have however...what is your new plan?

hughs dad

Hello. I read through all of your own posts. You ought to check out some of them. Just listen to how much better you said you're life was. I do the same thing, but it really is amazing how bipolar alcoholism can be.

One minute I hate and never want to drink again, the other I feel like I can have "a few".

bostonluv

There is just no escaping lifes up and downs.

least

My days are up and down, but at least I'm clear headed to deal with whatever comes my way. And no more hangovers! No matter what happens, drinking can only make it worse. My sober self is smarter than my drinking self.