"I F@@Up Yawl"
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Butterfly I never said you were a failure. I also never said it was easy.
Sorry, but I don't sugercoat. I assume it can be looked at as insensitive.
We all struggle somewhere in recovery. But the good news is, is that your problems arn't unique. We all have felt like you have felt at one time or another. As we grow in recovery we also have moments of pain. It is those moments of pain that help us grow stronger.
In AA you have many tools at your disposal. Take each day as it comes. I'll pray for you.
Tom
"Many of us exclaimed, "What an order! I can't go through with it." Do not be discouraged. No one among us has been able to maintain anything like perfect adherence to these principles. We are not saints. The point is, that we are willing to grow along spiritual lines. The principles we have set down are guides to progress. We claim spiritual progress rather than spiritual perfection." (BB "How It Works, First Edition.)
We all struggle somewhere in recovery. But the good news is, is that your problems arn't unique. We all have felt like you have felt at one time or another. As we grow in recovery we also have moments of pain. It is those moments of pain that help us grow stronger.
In AA you have many tools at your disposal. Take each day as it comes. I'll pray for you.
Tom
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My fellow fly-girl, my heart goes out to you! What has happened is horrible and I'm sorry that you are going through it. I can't think of anything better than what warren said above. It doesn't matter what kind of pain it is, when you decide to take that first drink or first pill, you may feel better for a little while, but the pain is still there when it wears off, and usually much worse b/c now you're dealing with guilt and shame.
Please, sweetie, don't let the guilt get you down. Pick yourself up, dust off the regret, and get back to being who YOU are meant to be. The person that God put you on this Earth to be: a mother, and a friend. The rest will fall in place when it is supposed to--not when you want it to!
You have a deep and powerful faith within you butterfly. Go to a quiet place and have a one on one conversation with God. He'll never lead you in the wrong direction. When you're thinking of drinking again, call up a friend who knows what you're going through and don't be afraid to ask for help!
May peace be with you my friend!
Love,
butterfly19
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butter,
so glad to hear you still committed to going forward in sobriety and your program. Many of my home group were just freaked the first time I drank after 2.5 years sober....i was doing all the things suggested, working the steps, etc.
I hit something which i simply could not see any solution to...and so i drank. I lost hope for that moment...it was the insanity that proceedes the first drink.
I have had to face the "dark night of the soul" on a few occasions. i made it though sober sometimes and sometimes not....but i believe it is always possible to make it though it sober...I believe you will learn how to walk skillfully through your karma (gods will). You are strong...but we all have moments of vunerability....and you know..being able to give your heart and pay the consequences is a strong thing to do.
ok i'm rambling. pm me if you would like, you might find the dark nite of the soul helpful expecially if you are christian....but don't want to take up your thread.
YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE IT BUTTER!!!:ghug3
so glad to hear you still committed to going forward in sobriety and your program. Many of my home group were just freaked the first time I drank after 2.5 years sober....i was doing all the things suggested, working the steps, etc.
I hit something which i simply could not see any solution to...and so i drank. I lost hope for that moment...it was the insanity that proceedes the first drink.
I have had to face the "dark night of the soul" on a few occasions. i made it though sober sometimes and sometimes not....but i believe it is always possible to make it though it sober...I believe you will learn how to walk skillfully through your karma (gods will). You are strong...but we all have moments of vunerability....and you know..being able to give your heart and pay the consequences is a strong thing to do.
ok i'm rambling. pm me if you would like, you might find the dark nite of the soul helpful expecially if you are christian....but don't want to take up your thread.
YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE IT BUTTER!!!:ghug3
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Originally Posted by Signal30 
Butterfly I never said you were a failure. I also never said it was easy.
Sorry, but I don't sugercoat. I assume it can be looked at as insensitive.
We all struggle somewhere in recovery. But the good news is, is that your problems arn't unique. We all have felt like you have felt at one time or another. As we grow in recovery we also have moments of pain. It is those moments of pain that help us grow stronger.
In AA you have many tools at your disposal. Take each day as it comes. I'll pray for you.
Tom
Sorry, but I don't sugercoat. I assume it can be looked at as insensitive.
We all struggle somewhere in recovery. But the good news is, is that your problems arn't unique. We all have felt like you have felt at one time or another. As we grow in recovery we also have moments of pain. It is those moments of pain that help us grow stronger.
In AA you have many tools at your disposal. Take each day as it comes. I'll pray for you.
Tom
understand I don't know how you, or other handle there
grief, But I'm not you, I'm way different then you and trust
me I know you mean well, but right now I don't want
to here about meetings, I could barely get out of Bed
and take a shower, I know is not the end of the world
but can a woman stay in her pij's and tuck
her self under her covers and just cry her azzz off
& I don't sugahh code anything either I know what I got to
do but not in your time when ever I'm ready
Thanx.......................
FreeSpirit
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Originally Posted by Bigbook12
Of course taking care of yourself and going to meeting is the last thing on your mind. You want your husband and family back and all will be utipia. Well guess what recovery starts with and in you. You get a program and get your life on track you still may never get back what you seek but at least you will have you, thats more than you have now. Cant shower, its the end of the world, cant get out of bed.
Do something for you before alcoholism does it for you. To late sounds like alcohol already did that. I feel for you I lost my ex and the thought it was the end of the world as I knew it but something in me said one day at a time I dont drink maybe just maybe I'll one day have the life I truly crave. Today the solution is simple when ever something bad happens I wipe my tears, get on my knees and stick to people who truly know what I am going through and the only people I have ever found that truly know what I'm going through is the people in AA.
A
Do something for you before alcoholism does it for you. To late sounds like alcohol already did that. I feel for you I lost my ex and the thought it was the end of the world as I knew it but something in me said one day at a time I dont drink maybe just maybe I'll one day have the life I truly crave. Today the solution is simple when ever something bad happens I wipe my tears, get on my knees and stick to people who truly know what I am going through and the only people I have ever found that truly know what I'm going through is the people in AA.
A
you, I don't know what meetings you assist but coming down on my neck is not going to make it any better trust me it just makes me more Rebellious,
You don't think I-
Don't know what I got to do, and If you read my thread
right and take your time to read I never said it was the end of the world, I said that I realize is not the end of the world
and no I don't want my family to all come together,
and
Please if you can't understand were I'm coming from
and understand and read my threads more clearly with
a open mind then don't give me feed back I don't want yours I said or anybody s sympathy Ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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B-7.....
Not one person who has replied to you
has done so with a mean spirit.
We all are trying to support you
the best we know how.
Prayers for your serenity as you go thru
this painful situation.
Not one person who has replied to you
has done so with a mean spirit.
We all are trying to support you
the best we know how.
Prayers for your serenity as you go thru
this painful situation.
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I agree with Carol B7 - I know you're in pain, but attacking those trying to help is not the way.
If you don't want AA related advice, a different forum might be the go for a start....
For what it's worth tho, I think there's been some great advice here in this thread - I hope you read it again when things are less raw
D
If you don't want AA related advice, a different forum might be the go for a start....
For what it's worth tho, I think there's been some great advice here in this thread - I hope you read it again when things are less raw
D
FreeSpirit
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Originally Posted by CarolD
B-7.....
Not one person who has replied to you
has done so with a mean spirit.
We all are trying to support you
the best we know how.
Prayers for your serenity as you go thru
this painful situation.
Not one person who has replied to you
has done so with a mean spirit.
We all are trying to support you
the best we know how.
Prayers for your serenity as you go thru
this painful situation.
give me some grieving time I know he means well
and everybody I've says it in my post thousand times
read them I keep saying thanx and that I know they mean well can that person just understand my Pain
no sympathy no pity I never offended no one
or spoke with a mean spirit............
FreeSpirit
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Originally Posted by Dee74
I agree with Carol B7 - I know you're in pain, but attacking those trying to help is not the way.
If you don't want AA related advice, a different forum might be the go for a start....
For what it's worth tho, I think there's been some great advice here in this thread - I hope you read it again when things are less raw
D
If you don't want AA related advice, a different forum might be the go for a start....
For what it's worth tho, I think there's been some great advice here in this thread - I hope you read it again when things are less raw
D
for some time to clear my thoughts is that so much to ask
and when I write these post God knows I'm not Mad at no one or in any way attacking
Thanx for the supportI don't have the right to reply back and express how I feel
I could understand if I was Bashing any one but I haven't
I'm grateful for all the replay's
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Thanx Agenlina Love U girl
and if anybody got offended Please don't
I'm so sorry if it sounded like if I
was been ungrateful
God Knows my Heart and was
in it and in no way I would hurt any
of you Guys you've been my support net work
Thanx Yawl...
and if anybody got offended Please don't
I'm so sorry if it sounded like if I
was been ungrateful
God Knows my Heart and was
in it and in no way I would hurt any
of you Guys you've been my support net work
Thanx Yawl...
FreeSpirit
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Originally Posted by stone
I know Butter, you don't wanna hear platitudes when you are going through this.I have a platitude, just dont use...that is all. I love you Butter.
I Luv U too
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And the sun, will set for you, and the shadow of the day, we'll the world in gray, and the sun will set for you. Things have to get better, I know the drinking me stays in the same spot, and that spot is misery and settling on a sub-par life. Hey, no problem,a lot of people would be happy where I am, but I am not. Take a look at your life, how bad do you want things to be better? It really isn't that hard, if you want to settle with a drinking life, do it. But there is a better life out there. Realize that.
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