unigirl

Hi all, i wrote a week back about how i relapsed after 4 months. I was uspet and shame, anger, fear and remorse were all back. But i am pleased to say i am moving forward and doing everything suggested to me to keep sober 1 day at a time!
Its not been easy sharing at meetings, using the phone and all the other things that i never did because of fear, but i know i have to push through it because if i dont continue wiht the action i wont stay sober. I've tried half measures and it doesnt work- for me.
I am just very grateful right now- i genuinely belivie God is doing for me what i cannot do for myself, i do feel as though a spiritual exp is taking place- and i know that saounds all dramatic but i am just being honest. I want people to know this does work if u work it! I have a long way to go, but a day at a time i am happily recovering. I know its not about being ecstatic all the time- becuase i havnt been- as i say its not been easy but its deffo a MASSIVE improvemnet on how i felt when i drank, or even wehn i was in reovery but not putting in the action and effort required -for me- to stay sober. Thanks to eveyrone at SR too for threads and comments- i get a lot of help and inspiration here.

caraway

Thanks for sharing this unigirl. Its great to hear that you've picked yourself up and are moving forward again.

stone

Sounding good Uni!

unigirl

thanks stone and caraway I'm not feeling so great this morn - got a 12 hour shift ahead of me but going to keep doing what im doing and keep up the positivity! Have a gd day!

Tazman53

Uni keep on keeping on, the road to sobriety is not a smooth one, the pebbles on the road in early sobriety seem like boulders!!! The good thing I have found is the longer I am sober the smaller the boulders are and the easier they become to get past as long as I am working my program. Heck I have days where I skip down that road now, but life goes on and caca happens....... I have some bad days, but by applying my program and staying sober those bad days pass far quicker then they used to.

I have not had anything major like a death or divorce pop up yet, but I have seen more then one person in the rooms go through pure dee hell in thier lifes and not pick up a drink by working their programs they come out on the other side, thier experience gives me hope that when the really bad times come I too will be able to walk through the same hell I have seen them walk through.

least

I slipped last weekend after almost three weeks sober. Now Im starting over again. I think I slipped cause I have learned fully how to handle stress in my life. I also think that I have to do the first step every day, not just once, cause when I drank again I did not think of how powerless I really am over alcohol. So now I'm doing the first step every day to remind myself not to drink.

Really glad about your sobriety! Together we can do this.:ghug:ghug3:praying

RufusACanal

Great work Unigirl......