problemchild

Well i am feeling regret, remorse, shame, and weak , I drank .........
Unable to call anyone of my contacts at the moment and i guess im just trying to put things in perspective....Sorry as hell but i cant change it..

serenityqueen

You said you aren't able to call any of your contacts at the moment . . . did you try to call them BEFORE you picked up that first drink?

You need to let go of the guilt and shame.
The only thing those feelings are good for is keeping you sick.

It took a great deal of courage to share that.
Next time you get the urge to drink, call those numbers and if you can't get ahold of anyone, get on here and share how you're feeling.

Just don't drink today.

One Day at A Time,
Judy

problemchild

No i did not call anyone before i drank like i should have, i had some really bad thinking ways........Mine , and i just got a case of the f@$k its a bad case..

Tazman53

John I pray this was a short relapse for your sake, you have my number, you know you can call me.

You know what you need to do.

Big hug for you!

CarolD

John....you know what to do....
....out the dorr into action.

Blessings

WendyS

Breathe, dust yourself off and get moving. You can do this!!
Big Hugs!!
Wendy

ANGELINA243

Well...there is certainly no need to further punish yourself--cannot change the past. This can be a learning experience. Keep moving forward in your recovery. :atv

Texasblind

My phone was off last time you called. I apologize and I did get your message. Try again if you need to. I just don't always have it with me.

RufusACanal

Like Angelina remarked, no need to punish yourself, please let me do it! You can change the things you can. John, have you had enough pain yet?

unigirl

Accept whats happened and move one. I know how u r feeling because i have relapsed too. Im now over 1 week sober and i have used my relapse as a lesson learned and basically a kick up the butt to really put all the effort into AA and my recovery.
I know its not easy but things will get better if u start over with reocvery, use this as a valuable lesson. I can only offer advice that was given for me- but it has worked so far!
Since my relapse i've been attending many meetings, sharing, working on the program - an also looking at triggers etc with my sponser. I am very grateful i got back, i was lucky enough to stop and start over- becuase many dont. Good luck- keep sharing and let us know how u doing

caraway

Thanks for being brave and sharing this with us problemchild. It reminds me of the seriousness of this illness.
As has been said, try not to punish yourself anymore. You can start again. You can do it.

problemchild

I know how to stay sober, what i need to do to stay sober, but when i needed to do the things to stay sober i chose not to and said f it. How can i of all people just do that and drink, after what i put my family through and myself with this d@%# drinking.
I thought i was changing in my thoughts and i was trying to turn my will over to my higher power but i guess im doing something wrong. Thanks for all the support on here it really means alot to me,(another tool i didnt use)...

Take care,
John

RufusACanal

John,

Give up your fight to stay sober and surrender; acceptance that you can no longer drink successfully is the answer. It took me 25 years to surrender in AA and if I can find the path to a new life, so can you my friend! Let me know what I can do to help! Ron

Tazman53

Step one John, I will be helping my new sponsee tonight with that...... even though we have spent a great deal of time talking about that very step and its importance every time I give him a ride home from a meeting.