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Why……

This is my life, it is what it is

Never did I expect this

When I was a kid I had so many dreams

Then you grow up and realize what that means

Sleeping and dreaming of what could have been

But reality captures you, this is now not then

In your past whether good or bad

You will never really have what you had

Now days flow from one to the next

Would life be like this if I tried my best

There are lots of reasons that I can’t explain

But I’ll still blame them all for all of my pain

All I can do is keep moving on

And I really hope life is playing my song

At least if I try


ThanK You Carol

CarolD

Good to see you again...

What's new with you?

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I'm doing somewhat ok now. I was very stupid before, addition can affect people in so many ways; it will be a struggle that I face the rest of my life and I'm 26 now (that's a long time). After waking up to the police at my door and put into a two week treatment facility. I was soooo mad. I honestly thought that I would never come back onto this web site again, except for to yell. But I realize now that it was only for the best and I would never want that on my conscience either. I also know how selfish I was to only think about myself especially considering how many people were kinda mad at me for even thinking about it. I've dealt with a revolving door in and out of addiction and hurt in my family. I will never be perfect, but I will at least try to be here.

CarolD

I'm so glad you did return ...

That struggle you wrote about ceased for me years ago.
This can happen for you too.

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Thank you Carol, in a way I guess I owe you my life. You are really great and really caring towards everyone on this site.