Alcoholic or drunk?
LOL! (no challenge taken) I genuinely thought it funny.
Talk about self sabotage! thanks for the example! Good one.
'what if' is the by line of the alcoholic, I think.
I mean, if the 'what if' is scary enough,
we can justify not doing pretty much anything, right?
I better not try that 'what if' ...
Don't think that .. 'what if' ...
I only know that because I do it too.
Bella, every now and then ... I have a brain freeze and think about not drinking. Then, because I laid my foundation carefully, I remember all the suffering, loneliness, pain I both endured .. and caused ...when I drink. Drank.
Then I make myself think about all the new friends I've made, all the times people have told me I've HELPED them ... something I was rarely told when drinking, even as a bartender (yea =- 'thanks for helping me kill myself) and -
That pretty much kills the longing.
Like a couple of weeks ago ... for no reason what. so. ever.
I remembered the first time I had a really fine Port.
Christmas Eve, historical hotel. Huge fireplace. Snowing outside.
But when I thought about it further -
what I truly enjoyed about that night -
was the people I was with, the beauty of the snow,
the Sacred nature of the holiday ... and my great hair night ...
so I stopped and made myself take it even further -
to the end of my drinking.
What a buzzkill.
'what if' ....
There's other ways to enjoylife.
'what if' ...
I miss out on them by drinking.
Talk about self sabotage! thanks for the example! Good one.
'what if' is the by line of the alcoholic, I think.
I mean, if the 'what if' is scary enough,
we can justify not doing pretty much anything, right?
I better not try that 'what if' ...
Don't think that .. 'what if' ...
I only know that because I do it too.
Bella, every now and then ... I have a brain freeze and think about not drinking. Then, because I laid my foundation carefully, I remember all the suffering, loneliness, pain I both endured .. and caused ...when I drink. Drank.
Then I make myself think about all the new friends I've made, all the times people have told me I've HELPED them ... something I was rarely told when drinking, even as a bartender (yea =- 'thanks for helping me kill myself) and -
That pretty much kills the longing.
Like a couple of weeks ago ... for no reason what. so. ever.
I remembered the first time I had a really fine Port.
Christmas Eve, historical hotel. Huge fireplace. Snowing outside.
But when I thought about it further -
what I truly enjoyed about that night -
was the people I was with, the beauty of the snow,
the Sacred nature of the holiday ... and my great hair night ...
so I stopped and made myself take it even further -
to the end of my drinking.
What a buzzkill.
'what if' ....
There's other ways to enjoylife.
'what if' ...
I miss out on them by drinking.
Sara are you sure there is an inference, or is it something you are trying to put inbetween the lines?
You used nandm's post as an example of this inference, yet the last line of her's that you quoted says "For me the 12 Steps did it but I know others have found different ways that have worked." I bolded the part where she stated flat out that there are other ways.
I am well aware there are other ways then AA that work great, if you take a moment to read over my post you will see where I speak of my fahter being a great example that AA is not the only way to recovery.
sara I know AA, I have heard of the same thing in AA but have never seen it in my area. I have heard a couple of the old timers talking about when they were new to AA and sobriety that some of the old timers then were very much against anti-depressants and the like, thank goodness people wised up in my area.
Depression is very common amoung alcoholics as I would imagine it is with drug addicts. In my area folks in the rooms encourage each other in taking thier meds, one main reason is because according to the old timers back in the day those alcoholics who quit taking thier meds for depression wound up getting drunk again.
In my area as long as a doctor prescribes it and one is taking a med as prescribed there is no break in thier sobriety. I know in the Big Book of AA there is not a single mention of taking meds prescribed by a doctor as directed of effecting some ones sobriety.
One must always keep in mind that AA & NA both are people, people are far from perfect, I have no idea what NA's take on anti-depressants in my area is, but I can speak to AA folks in my area is on them, they are fine as long as they are doctor prescribed and taken as directed.
Not sure what individual/individuals are in my opinion misleading your sister, perhaps you could find out and talk to them.
Bella if I thought I could drink normally of course, but I am an alcoholic and as a result I am left with only 2 choices:
Drink alcoholicly
Not to drink at all.
I know where drinking takes me as an alcoholic..... Death!
I know where not drinking takes me............. Life!
I have to say though that I doubt I would get "The Cure" if suddenly scientist came up with one, why would I want to drink what at one time in my life took me to the gates of hell?
Who knows maybe I would get that cure if it made it to where alcohol once again took me where it took me when I first started to drink, but you know in just typing that sentence I realized something, sobriety and the steps have given me everything that alcohol in the beginning gave me, so why waste my time and money on a cure just to where I could drink?
You used nandm's post as an example of this inference, yet the last line of her's that you quoted says "For me the 12 Steps did it but I know others have found different ways that have worked." I bolded the part where she stated flat out that there are other ways.
I am well aware there are other ways then AA that work great, if you take a moment to read over my post you will see where I speak of my fahter being a great example that AA is not the only way to recovery.
My sister is huge in NA. She has gone everyday for three years and I can't thank the program enough. However, they also encouraged her that her anxiety meds and anti-depressants were another form of using and masking her fear, resentments, etc,. She goes off of them and goes absolutely batty because she thinks she is not sober taking her medication as prescribed. When in reality her brain has a chemical imbalance and the medication makes her a level person.
Depression is very common amoung alcoholics as I would imagine it is with drug addicts. In my area folks in the rooms encourage each other in taking thier meds, one main reason is because according to the old timers back in the day those alcoholics who quit taking thier meds for depression wound up getting drunk again.
In my area as long as a doctor prescribes it and one is taking a med as prescribed there is no break in thier sobriety. I know in the Big Book of AA there is not a single mention of taking meds prescribed by a doctor as directed of effecting some ones sobriety.
One must always keep in mind that AA & NA both are people, people are far from perfect, I have no idea what NA's take on anti-depressants in my area is, but I can speak to AA folks in my area is on them, they are fine as long as they are doctor prescribed and taken as directed.
Not sure what individual/individuals are in my opinion misleading your sister, perhaps you could find out and talk to them.
Do none of you ever wish you could still drink?
Drink alcoholicly
Not to drink at all.
I know where drinking takes me as an alcoholic..... Death!
I know where not drinking takes me............. Life!
I have to say though that I doubt I would get "The Cure" if suddenly scientist came up with one, why would I want to drink what at one time in my life took me to the gates of hell?
Who knows maybe I would get that cure if it made it to where alcohol once again took me where it took me when I first started to drink, but you know in just typing that sentence I realized something, sobriety and the steps have given me everything that alcohol in the beginning gave me, so why waste my time and money on a cure just to where I could drink?
Sorry to put you as an example but this is an example of not working AA = Misery. Mental illness is a major factor in many addictions. time.
My sister is huge in NA. She has gone everyday for three years and I can't thank the program enough. However, they also encouraged her that her anxiety meds and anti-depressants were another form of using and masking her fear, resentments, etc,. She goes off of them and goes absolutely batty because she thinks she is not sober taking her medication as prescribed. When in reality her brain has a chemical imbalance and the medication makes her a level person.
My sister is huge in NA. She has gone everyday for three years and I can't thank the program enough. However, they also encouraged her that her anxiety meds and anti-depressants were another form of using and masking her fear, resentments, etc,. She goes off of them and goes absolutely batty because she thinks she is not sober taking her medication as prescribed. When in reality her brain has a chemical imbalance and the medication makes her a level person.
Exactly!! That was my whole point above, you have to be willing to change your attitude and be willing to give yourself wholey to AA. That's not what i was dealing with in my life with my Xa. He has a poor, poor everyone's out to get me attitude always.
And what does it mean to not want to drink, really? I mean, what if I do all the work and there never comes a time when I don't wish I could still drink or get drunk -- even if I'm making changes in other ways and have been sober for six years? Do none of you ever wish you could still drink? (By the way, I'm honestly just curious -- that wasn't meant as a challenge, even if it sounded that way.)
The obsession and the desire is lifted; as promised. Those who thoroughly follow the path are given this gift. I have spent years trying to drink like a normal drinker. After the definition of a normal social drinker was explained at 3-4 drinks per week I saw no point in it. Why bother? I can't drink like I used to, 3-4 drinks a week is a complete waste of time and ice water isn't near as bad as I thought it would be. It's a good life.
And what does it mean to not want to drink, really? I mean, what if I do all the work and there never comes a time when I don't wish I could still drink or get drunk -- even if I'm making changes in other ways and have been sober for six years? Do none of you ever wish you could still drink? (By the way, I'm honestly just curious -- that wasn't meant as a challenge, even if it sounded that way.)
Hey Bella,
I'm 7 or so months sober. I still want to drink sometimes - but in the same way as I want ice-cream sometimes, or I don't want to go to work sometimes. It's a 'normal' urge, not the overwhelming obsession I used to have. It's easily dealt with, or it has been so far, anyway. Basically, it's no big deal, and a few months ago I could never have pictured myself saying that.
I'm 7 or so months sober. I still want to drink sometimes - but in the same way as I want ice-cream sometimes, or I don't want to go to work sometimes. It's a 'normal' urge, not the overwhelming obsession I used to have. It's easily dealt with, or it has been so far, anyway. Basically, it's no big deal, and a few months ago I could never have pictured myself saying that.
I don't understand this "Wish I could still drink" you are speaking of. I can drink whenever I want. I just don't want to.
The obsession and the desire is lifted; as promised. Those who thoroughly follow the path are given this gift. I have spent years trying to drink like a normal drinker. After the definition of a normal social drinker was explained at 3-4 drinks per week I saw no point in it. Why bother? I can't drink like I used to, 3-4 drinks a week is a complete waste of time and ice water isn't near as bad as I thought it would be. It's a good life.
The obsession and the desire is lifted; as promised. Those who thoroughly follow the path are given this gift. I have spent years trying to drink like a normal drinker. After the definition of a normal social drinker was explained at 3-4 drinks per week I saw no point in it. Why bother? I can't drink like I used to, 3-4 drinks a week is a complete waste of time and ice water isn't near as bad as I thought it would be. It's a good life.
Are there days when my head goes to the drink? Yes, just like there are days my head says a cigarette would be good. But the difference between today and 7 years ago is the obession part. My mind thinks about it in a fleeting thought, if it does stick around longer than that I can remove it by playing the tape all the way through and remember where drinking takes me. I don't know if you have ever smoked cigarettes or not but a similar obession happens with them. The nicotine receptors in the brain go haywire and demand the brain continually think about nicotine until it gets it. I had that same type of obession with alcohol. Once it was in my head it would not leave until I drank. I have not experienced that type of obsession for nearly 7 years now. Same thing with cigarettes as I quit both at the same time. I do not wish I could drink though as I know without a doubt that I am an alcoholic and drinking is not an option that I am willing to consider. I don't know that I would live to make it back into sobriety if I did and I am not willing to find out.
What happens if someone were to go out drinking every weekend, get wasted each time, and yet not have any negative consequences? Is it only the consequences that make it a problem?
(I DID have negative consequences due to my drinking -- some major ones, some minor -- but I'm just wondering.)
Taz - We could go back and forth on this until we are 100. We can't debate what I consider to be my personal experience as a newbie being here for a month or so and reading for much longer. Around the time I came in a small batch of newbies came in with me and all but me have left because of the vibe or what they "read between the lines." I stay in contact with a couple via email. Again it's not a debate it's just my personal experience and my feelings which are not held by only myself.
As far as people's different experiences with NA it may or may not be a generality but it is what my experience is. I wasn't trying to debate what The Big Book stated just share with you my personal experience. There may be certain lines here and there that state other modalities but AA is definitely the main game in town here and it definitely shows.
Not saying people aren't welcoming and nice because I have found everyone to be absolutely that but there is definitely a strong AA Push here. When a person states the program is working for them they get 7 people saying "thanks." When someone suggests an alternative it is basically ignored by the community.
As far as people's different experiences with NA it may or may not be a generality but it is what my experience is. I wasn't trying to debate what The Big Book stated just share with you my personal experience. There may be certain lines here and there that state other modalities but AA is definitely the main game in town here and it definitely shows.
Not saying people aren't welcoming and nice because I have found everyone to be absolutely that but there is definitely a strong AA Push here. When a person states the program is working for them they get 7 people saying "thanks." When someone suggests an alternative it is basically ignored by the community.
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I sometimes call myself a drunk to remind me of where I came from and to remain humble.
The minute I'm a "recovering alcoholic", I'm suddenly in the "better than" camp, and different than the rest of you. That's a dangerous place for me to go.
The minute I'm a "recovering alcoholic", I'm suddenly in the "better than" camp, and different than the rest of you. That's a dangerous place for me to go.
I've found for the most part that people in general here talk about their personal experiences and if that happens to be AA, NA or another way then so be it. From what i've read, it's all personal know how. That's how i write, my experience with my A. When i was calling MY exabf a "dry drunk" that's what HE was, i'm not labeling anyone else but some may take it that way. As they say, take what you want and leave the rest. JMHO
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As far as people's different experiences with NA it may or may not be a generality but it is what my experience is. I wasn't trying to debate what The Big Book stated just share with you my personal experience. There may be certain lines here and there that state other modalities but AA is definitely the main game in town here and it definitely shows.
Not saying people aren't welcoming and nice because I have found everyone to be absolutely that but there is definitely a strong AA Push here. When a person states the program is working for them they get 7 people saying "thanks." When someone suggests an alternative it is basically ignored by the community.
Not saying people aren't welcoming and nice because I have found everyone to be absolutely that but there is definitely a strong AA Push here. When a person states the program is working for them they get 7 people saying "thanks." When someone suggests an alternative it is basically ignored by the community.
I know my experience is that I can be overly protective of A.A. because I do feel it saved my life. I do tend to get frustrated when I see someone running A.A. down or saying it doesn't work. I agree it does not work for everyone. We are all different but I see no reason for a person to put down a program that might help someone else just because it did not work for them personally. I would not and have not put down Rational Recovery although I tried it and found it was not something that worked for me. I have heard of people who were successful with that program. I have also seen people that recovered by going back to church. My opinion is it doesn't matter how one deals with their alcohol problem as long as they deal with it.
I believe the thanks that you see regarding A.A. statements is directly related to the proportion of people who have found help through that program and make a point to be supportive of others who find success there too. One thing you will find is that many of us are supportive of all who try and recover despite what method they use.
Keep posting, and take what you can use and leave the rest. Some of us are sicker than others. I can be one of the sick ones at times myself.
Bella,
Absolutely. It IS a spiritual program. I have been nurtured by my sponsor and my group to find my own HP. Nobody has asked me what it is, and nobody is forcing anything on me. I have found much growth, and expect more.
Karen
Absolutely. It IS a spiritual program. I have been nurtured by my sponsor and my group to find my own HP. Nobody has asked me what it is, and nobody is forcing anything on me. I have found much growth, and expect more.
Karen
If you look at some of the newbie posts where people say "Hi, I am new I don't want to go to AA but I am doing XYZ." They don't receive any thanks. When someone comes in and says "I just joined AA...etc,." Kudos abound. Not on every post of course but it is just something I have picked up on. I guess the "Thanks" for comments are almost to me like a peanut gallery kind of thing.
Completely. I am by no means religious but do consider myself spiritual. I am not knocking organized religion but my experience with it has been negative. If I had to be religious to stop drinking I would rather die drinking. That may sound harsh but my past experiences with organized religion have been harsh. I know it works for some, even some people I consider good friends but it is not for me.
I do believe the community is not intentionally biased toward A.A. I think that is basically because there seems to be a larger percentage of people who use A.A. to recover. I may be wrong but the online forums I have seen have all seemed to be very similar in that respect. That does not make it right but it happens to be a fact right now. One way to change that is to watch for those posts you are referring to and show them support by posting your thanks. I personally post thanks to anyone who I feel makes a statement that means something to me. Regardless of if it is A.A. related or not. By the way, I did not take it as you were A.A. bashing, I was making a general statement. I don't feel you have been rude about A.A. you just have posted your thoughts and asked for feedback. Nothing wrong with that.
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(Dry) drunk: “I must force myself not to drink. I must not drink, I must not drink, I MUST not drink, I MUST NOT drink, I must must must MUST not DRINK!!!”
Sober alcoholic: “Thank goodness, I never have to drink again. I never have to go through that again. I don’t have to drink. I never have to suffer like that again. I do not have to drink. I’m free!”
Kind of simplistic, I know, but there's a real difference.
Sober alcoholic: “Thank goodness, I never have to drink again. I never have to go through that again. I don’t have to drink. I never have to suffer like that again. I do not have to drink. I’m free!”
Kind of simplistic, I know, but there's a real difference.
-Phillips
As far as people's different experiences with NA it may or may not be a generality but it is what my experience is. I wasn't trying to debate what The Big Book stated just share with you my personal experience. There may be certain lines here and there that state other modalities but AA is definitely the main game in town here and it definitely shows.
I definitely do not want to give the impression that I am bashing AA. I am really not intending too. I am rather stating that this community is very AA Based and people who use AA receive more support and thanks for AA replies.
This forum is for "Alcoholism", there is another one on "12 step support"(Mainly AA), another "Secular connections"(Non-spiritual programs), another "The Men Room" men only.
If AA for some unknown reason offends or annoys folks seeking recovery there are other forums where AA should not be discussed out of courtesy to the members of that forum. In the alcoholism forum it is for all alcoholics to:
Do you want to quit drinking? The Alcoholism forum is an open forum for those who want to stop or who have stopped drinking.
Sara I really do not recall anyone saying AA is the only way, it's not, evey person here knows that.
I can only share what has worked for me, I have no right to comment on what programs have worked for others because I have no experience with other programs.
Well there is one program I know from expereince does not work for me....... the "My Way" program!
BTW on the "Thanks" button, I click thanks for one of several reasons, something said that worked for me, I am simply thanking them for what they said, something said in support of me or thanking me, or something I agree with.
My hitting the thanks has nothing to do with whether or not the person who said it was AA or not.
Taz - I never said that people on the board say AA is the only way. I stated there was an undertone on the board that is very AA orientated. As I said before I was making an observation as a newcomer.
Again if works for you that is awesome. Whatever works for anyone even if it is talking to your vacuum cleaner. I was merely trying to give my prospective as a newbie. It's only my opinion, nothing more, nothing less. I thought giving my prospective as a newbie might be helpful and perhaps give some insight into what new members are thinking or why they have left.
I don't really want to debate the "thanks" feature because I use it as well. I was merely making an observation when it is used in a certain context.
Again if works for you that is awesome. Whatever works for anyone even if it is talking to your vacuum cleaner. I was merely trying to give my prospective as a newbie. It's only my opinion, nothing more, nothing less. I thought giving my prospective as a newbie might be helpful and perhaps give some insight into what new members are thinking or why they have left.
I don't really want to debate the "thanks" feature because I use it as well. I was merely making an observation when it is used in a certain context.
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