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Old 10-09-2007, 01:42 PM
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REMINDER: You are NOT in control

I drank this weekend. I knew I would.
I didn't overdo it but I did get drunk.
I drank about three weeks ago as well.
I didn't get drunk that time. It wasn't worth it
at all.

I guess now I've got to change my sober date.
The new one is 10/07/07. It used to be 12/3/05.

I really can't believe I almost made two years.
I never thought that was possible.

The only thing I can think of is that I needed to test myself.
I did it. It's over.

I'm fine. Stuff happens. Moving on......
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Old 10-09-2007, 01:58 PM
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You're back today and that's what counts. Hang in there.
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Old 10-09-2007, 02:11 PM
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My new sober date is also 10/7, I relapsed after 3 years o sobriety and then struggled to get past more than 90 days without drinking and drugging in the last year. I just relapsed (went out drinking for one night) after coming up on four months..its soo frustrating to fail and fail, fail, and fail. But I'm proud of myself today for trying again, I already got a new sponsor and I'm approaching stepwork differently this time around again.
Lets keep our new sobriety date one day at a time!!
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Old 10-09-2007, 02:30 PM
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I wouldn't even count it as a relapse. You didn't "lose" 2 years of sobriety. Chances are your life is still MUCH better than 2 years ago. I've been in recovery for 5 years and seen my life improve.
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Old 10-09-2007, 02:33 PM
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True, my life is still much better than 2 years ago. I feel like I have to start my sobriety date over. I don't feel honest if I don't.
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Old 10-09-2007, 02:34 PM
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I feel like I have to start my sobriety date over.
Worse things have happened. Worse things could have happened. At least your back !
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Old 10-09-2007, 02:35 PM
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I like that attitude tiburon!:Weightlif Have u been clean and sober all 5 of those years?
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Old 10-09-2007, 04:08 PM
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Thumbs down Relapses....

I did my relapses all in one shot.......14 years of pain and heartbreak...I knew what it was like to be sober for one year then my second husband acused me of doing something different.....taking pills....or something else because I was too happy to suit him. This was on Mother's Day...I went to the laundry room and cried....once I started drinking again I didn't stop until I was at my bottom.

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Old 10-09-2007, 04:32 PM
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For heavens sake, will you guys stop counting days! One day at a time, remember?
I keep track of years because it's hard not too.(over 3) I really think if I were to screw up for one day (which I pray to God I don't because I just try to get through the one day) I hope to pick right up on the next day. It's not a race. It's a way to get soberly through life with all it's up's and downs while maintaining your self-esteem.

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Old 10-09-2007, 04:32 PM
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Thanks for the reminder Paperdolls, I had a close call a couple of days ago.
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Old 10-09-2007, 04:57 PM
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Thanks for the reminder, Jen. I'm glad you made it back to us.
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Old 10-09-2007, 05:00 PM
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Glad to see you back on track PD
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((((( PD )))))

I am just so very happy that you made it back.

You might have lost your sobriety date, but you have not lost your experience.

Hang in there kiddo!

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Old 10-09-2007, 11:11 PM
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Thank you for the reminder PD and welcome back!!!
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Old 10-10-2007, 12:30 AM
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a very good reminder. I'm glad you're still here, too!!!
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Old 10-10-2007, 02:40 AM
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Paperdolls & Jerzey, you made it back, more importantly you are honest enough to change your sobriety date, as I am sure you both know honesty is key to getting and staying sober. Welcome back!!!!!

Neither of you lost your sober time & experience, but by coming clean on your relapse/slip you have not only been honest with your self and others, you have helped others stay sober another day.

Recovery with out honesty is not recovery, it is simply an extension of the lie that led to ones slip/relapse. From every person who has had a relapse/slip they have shared that it all started with them lying to them selfs that they could handle it this time, that and their forgetter had kicked into over drive!!!

We had a gal who came back in a week ago, she had 16 months sober time when she relapsed, she shared that she beleived her own lies and that is when she picked up, she said the experience of her 16 months sober are what led her to get honest with herself and the group, because as she put it "Lies took me out there after 16 months, honesty brought me back in, I had to once again get honest with myself and the group."

She picked up her 24 hour chip at a newcomers meeting because she wanted both the newcomers and old timers to know that if you lose your honesty, you lose your sobriety.

Welcome back and thanks for sharing your relapse/slip.
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Old 10-10-2007, 01:14 PM
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I'm glad you're back and ok, and I'm very grateful for all the avatar links too, even though I'm too reactionary to actually change mine.
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Old 10-11-2007, 09:09 PM
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HI PD! So good to see you . Sorry you had a hicup! get back up there girl, you can do it
Long time no post me LOL

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Old 10-11-2007, 09:30 PM
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Hi PD, I just saw this thread. I mostly stay on the newbie forum. I have a hard enough time keeping up with that.

I'm so glad your still here and trying again.

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