miss communicat

welcome Sara

Hang in there during these first days....and then, keep on hanging in with us . You can do this, and you will be better soon!

Sara9009

I am at my official day 3. I am actually feeling pretty decent. A heck of a lot better than I did 6 months ago when I did this.

ANGELINA243

Push up, Sara! That's great! :Weightlif

Sara9009

Day 4 still here... I dreamt that I drank last night and woke up going. Expletive, expletive... what did I do that for now I have to start all over and went oh that was a dream.

tanyapmc

I think most of us have drinking/using dreams. I know that I have. You said you are bored. Have you thought about going to AA?

Glad your here and keep posting

Sara9009

I appreciate the suggestion but I don't agree with the AA Model. I think it is great for other people but not for me. If I decide I need a program I have a list of alternatives.

As for boredom it is a lot better. I just need to get back to working on a regular basis. (I am self-employed). I am not bored because I am used to going to the bar and hanging out with people. I am a hermit and hang out at home all the time so it's not a boredom from missing social interaction. It was more of a cleaning the house w/o a buzz is pretty boring kind of thing but I am pretty much over that point.

leeside

Quote Sara9009: As for boredom it is a lot better. I just need to get back to working on a regular basis. (I am self-employed). I am not bored because I am used to going to the bar and hanging out with people. I am a hermit and hang out at home all the time so it's not a boredom from missing social interaction. It was more of a cleaning the house w/o a buzz is pretty boring kind of thing but I am pretty much over that point. End Quote

I can relate. Learning to "like hanging out with yourself" would probably be a very good effector to dealing with recovery.

Den13

I can completely relate to the dreams. I dream that I am sneaking a drink and hiding the bottle from my wife and when I wake up I am really mad that I was drinking (even though it was a dream), but then I have to go and check where I hid the bottle just to ensure it was a dream. I guess it's karma paying me back.

Sara9009

I am day 6 now I think. For the first time I would really like a drink. I am really angry right now but I know it will pass. Actually, I think I would prefer a cig. So I will drink my OJ and do some breathing exercises and chat with you guys. =)

Pinkcuda

What are you angry about? If you don't mind my asking.

Sara9009

Work-related stuff. Long and a boring explanation but I appreciate your concern. I am calm now. I don't have any control over what other people are going to do so I will just continue to do things to the best of my abilities.

Pinkcuda

That's all you can do. I see day 6 came and went. I hope you chose the cigarette. 6 Days is possible, you know you can do it, now just do it again. It's that simple, Hang in there!

Sara9009

I chose neither. I chose a glass of OJ, breathing, and telling my husband I was frustrated. Now I am watching a movie and drinking water.

Thanks for listening.

miss communicat

good choices~

scaredykat

Hi Sara. Welcome to SR. I just read your thread and can relate to a lot you said. My drinking got worse because of my chronic pain. I ended up a daily drinker myself. My drinking at the end was because of mostly feeling sorry for myself. I won't write to much as I'm in pain tonight. I just wanted to welcome you here.

Barb