CarolD

Whoa friends....Chill

Please treat other members with
compassion
or don't reply at all.

If you don't understand the post
don't reply.

"There but for the grace
of God ..... go I"

pixel

i agree. although i'm ashamed to admit that in the months that i've lurked here there were times that i snickered at how silly it was to expect to live life sober, trying to justify a happy medium between being totally drunk all the time and being sober all the time. i was in a lot of denial, i think i'm still dealing with quite a bit of denial. i apologize.

SaTiT

Hi joe ,

i wasn't luaghing against you , i was luaghing with you.

anywho, i found making plans didn't work out too will for me,
becuase life generally don't go according to plans, especailly my plans.

I also found long term goals was a bit too much for me.

I found short term goals, I could obtain.
I never promised that I would stop drinking for the rest of my life
nor made such a plan and F...that, I'm wasn't going to sponsor anyone, either.lol

I promise myself that today just for today , i will try to not drink.
I didn't even get it right the first time, nor the third time,
but I kept trying and trying again. i had to make even a shorter
goal. i had to do it a half a day at a time. i think it was 4 hours
at a time or two hours at a time.

it's like being at work..two hours at a time between a breaks was
about all i can behaved.lol

Tazman53

I know that feeling, it was either laugh or cry, my life was becoming a wreck and until I learned how to accept suggestions without thinking people were pushing me around or looking down on me I was in total misery and hating and blaming the world around me.

The biggest fear/hate I had was AA, damn sober alcoholics all laughing and crap, who the heck did they think they were? Once I was able to accept the fact that I could not stay sober my way and started following their suggestions I got and stayed sober and life became so much easier.

Suddenly those people who I thought were uppity bullies telling me what to do turned into people who actually cared about me and were only suggesting things to me to help me, not to push me around or degrade me.

nandm

You are correct Carol. I do want to appologize for my earlier post. It can be taken to be quite harsh.

I tend to get a little defensive when I feel that someone is knocking A.A. as without the program of A.A. I would be dead. It literally saved my life.

I do realize that I need to practice more love and tolerance as it is not all about me and how I feel.

zJoe99

Sorry I angered some of you. Wasn't my intent. Just trying to honestly vent some of my frustrations. I guess I can understand why some of you found my comments offensive. My point wasn't to be critical of AA... (I LOVE AA) It was to spill some garbage out of my head in hopes of finding common ground with newbys who think like me. I know my thinking is messed up.

Some of the negative feedback came from some folks here I have a lot of respect for. Man, that stung. Can we just chalk my faux paus up to poor communication skills and a shaky grasp on sobriety?

Hey, you'll soon forget it anyway. I feel another stupid comment bubbling up in me right now. Stay tuned...

barb dwyer

hi zJoe -

good to see you back! how ARE ya doing?

thank you for saying that and as far as you and I go - we're good.

CarolD

Welcome back Joe

Why not start a new thread and let this one go?
A fresh start often makes me feel more positive.
Only a suggestion...

Blessings

zJoe99

Yes, Ok. I've nothing worthy of a new thread right now. Just wanted to sooth any hurt feelings. I'll let this go...

CarolD

What ever you choose to share
is worthy of being said.

You never know who needs to hear
your story and it does help me

GrouchoTheCat

Hey Z,

Man that coulda been me, heck it was me. I understand. You brought that back to me in a vivid way, and right now I don't ever want to go back there again.

Sitting in my garage, watching TV, smoking cigs and getting drunker and drunker. Leave me alone, I'm not hurting anyone but myself, and if I want to hurt myself, it's my right to. Who the heck are you to tell me what to do?

Having flashes of what I thought were brilliance, but were really bull****.

It could have been me writing that. It got to where I couldn't laugh anymore. Couldn't cry either. Just numb. I was comfortable there, while it lasted.

All I can tell you my friend, is that I have found sober to be better.

I just hope you can find a way to crawl back out of your self-imposed prison.

You have seen a piece of the light and it's still waiting for you out here.

We are here to help.

Ted

Missymae737

Ted said it all...