laurenlanai25

Its nuts how when i stop fighting things, its not that hard! who would of thought!! this past year i spent fighting the fact that i was an alcoholic and all it did was bring me misery, the years that i spent sober i spent that whole time trying to defy the aa program and do things my way, again misery. now that i have accepted the fact that i am an alcoholic and that i need aa's 12 steps my life has been going really great! i keep focusing on the beginning of "how it works" its starts out, rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path! it doesnt say kinda sorta, it says thoroughly. i have always known that it is what it says but until recently have i been able to apply it to my life!! when i was sober before i always thought i was better than or different! today i know now that i am no better and i am no less, and feels good to be right in the middle!!

thanks everyone for all of your help and have a great weekend!!!!

Astro

Your words are music to my ears! ;-)

We need to cease fighting everything and everyone.

Cathy31

Lovely so true!!

Thanks Lauren~!

Cathy31
x

CarolD

Thanks for sharing your thoughts
Way To Go!

BP44

No doubt. That's what happened when I decided to get in the middle of the herd. My defiance and resistance nearly got me killed. We were the lucky ones to make it back by the grace of God.

barb dwyer

thanks for the smile, lauren!

I loved what you said about How It Works.

Don W

I agree with you. Someone told me a long time ago to pick and choose your battles. Lately you and I are choosing the right battle to fight. Keep up the good work.

BP44

You know what's weird is that I'm hearing things that were told to me long ago when I first got in the program AND they are making sense. Total surrender seems to work that way. I was talking to a guy after last night's meeting. He's been in for about 3 weeks. And now he's in that mode of "I can't figure this out". " I keep looking at it and I know I'm powerless BUT......yada, yada" So, I chatted with him for awhile and said ," Look, easy does it. You're not drinking today, you're hitting meetings and you have a sponsor that you're talking to" "Keep doing what you're doing and don't worry about what you're thinking or feeling" " You're at that dangerous time where you're starting to feel a little bit better AND THINKING, maybe it's not such a big deal" He said, " You know, you're right" "But I don't know what I'm supposed to do." I said, " Then you're right where you're supposed to be." Keep doing the deal 24 hours at a time. And no drinking till after midnight.

GlassPrisoner

Yup, the less I fight the easier it is. Go figure

And, the less I analyze the program, the more I learn. The more I admit I'm powerless, the more power I have. The less I try to control the outcome of things, the better things turn out. The less I think about myself, the happier I am.

AA is full of paradoxes.

snowgoose

YUP.