And Sometimes We Don't Recover
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Join Date: Jun 2004
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And Sometimes We Don't Recover
Hey guys,
No happy way to say this, I lost my sister to our disease last Thursday.
There. It seems a little bit more real to me. Just like it has seemed a little bit more real when I shared this sad news at my meetings. Thank God for meetings.
My sister had been fighting the losing battle for a number of years, but her problem really came into focus for me when I found recovery in 2002. Since then it has seemed like every summer she would enter the hospital and I would collect another year of sobriety. Only this summer, she didn't make it out of the hospital. Her liver finally gave out. Dead, at 53.
The two of us were alike in a lot of ways. I do not really understand why I was able to surrender and find recovery in the fellowships and she could not.
"I am convinced that my whole life depends on not taking that first drink. Nothing in the world is as important to me as my own sobriety. Everything I have, my whole life, depends on that one thing."
It always sounds so freaking over the top and yet I cannot deny the truth of it.
One Love, One Heart,
Tony
No happy way to say this, I lost my sister to our disease last Thursday.
There. It seems a little bit more real to me. Just like it has seemed a little bit more real when I shared this sad news at my meetings. Thank God for meetings.
My sister had been fighting the losing battle for a number of years, but her problem really came into focus for me when I found recovery in 2002. Since then it has seemed like every summer she would enter the hospital and I would collect another year of sobriety. Only this summer, she didn't make it out of the hospital. Her liver finally gave out. Dead, at 53.
The two of us were alike in a lot of ways. I do not really understand why I was able to surrender and find recovery in the fellowships and she could not.
"I am convinced that my whole life depends on not taking that first drink. Nothing in the world is as important to me as my own sobriety. Everything I have, my whole life, depends on that one thing."
It always sounds so freaking over the top and yet I cannot deny the truth of it.
One Love, One Heart,
Tony
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((((tony))))
I am so sorry for your loss. I'll be remembering you in my prayers. At least she doesn't have to suffer any more....
I have 2 siblings who are so strung out on dope I really worry about them. My oldest sibling has been clean for almost a year. I am very thankful that he is doing so well.
I am so sorry for your loss. I'll be remembering you in my prayers. At least she doesn't have to suffer any more....
I have 2 siblings who are so strung out on dope I really worry about them. My oldest sibling has been clean for almost a year. I am very thankful that he is doing so well.
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Tony,
I'm sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your post with us. It is very powerful. This disease could take any of us, and you are right to be firm in your resolve to stay away from the first drink.
"I am convinced that my whole life depends on not taking that first drink. Nothing in the world is as important to me as my own sobriety. Everything I have, my whole life, depends on that one thing."
This is very, very important for us to live.
Thank you again for sharing.
peace be with you,
chip
I'm sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your post with us. It is very powerful. This disease could take any of us, and you are right to be firm in your resolve to stay away from the first drink.
"I am convinced that my whole life depends on not taking that first drink. Nothing in the world is as important to me as my own sobriety. Everything I have, my whole life, depends on that one thing."
This is very, very important for us to live.
Thank you again for sharing.
peace be with you,
chip
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Sorry to hear about your sister Tony. I heard it said once that no alcoholic dies in vain, and I agree with that. The paradox of alcoholism is that I had to surrender to win. Some folks just refuse to give up the fight.
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Tony I wish I knew what to say to help.... but it sure looks as though you are dealing with this in a manner that honors the lose of your sister by letting others know that some of us do not recover. Her age struck me hard, I was 52 when I started walking the path to recovery.............. I am 53 now............... but for the grace of God go I.
Tony this is one of those times I wish this was face to face to give you a hug.
Tony this is one of those times I wish this was face to face to give you a hug.
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im so sorry about your sister tony 
i wish you peace and thanks for sharing something so painful. i love your endquote about you are an alcoholic but that's not all you are..... that's powerful.
take care of yourself ~ my prayers are with you and your family.
i wish you peace and thanks for sharing something so painful. i love your endquote about you are an alcoholic but that's not all you are..... that's powerful.
take care of yourself ~ my prayers are with you and your family.
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