karrotop

good morning all...yesterday,i went to a bridal shower for a family member...the primary beverage there was sangria...women drinking in the middle of the day....could never do that,even in my drinking days.
Then i went to my class reunion last night....it was an open bar...half of our class was gathered around the bar.
i drank iced tea at the shower and ginger ale at the reunion...It wasn't a problem for me,because i never enjoyed drinking in public anyway...i was always afraid of losing control around people...I preferred to drink alone,by myself....cause i thought i was in more control of myself.....noone knew,and i didn't talk on the phone after i reached a certain point...so i thought it was all,"under control".....boy,was i wrong.
the more i see others who drink in excess,the better i feel about my goal of sobriety....you all know i slipped last weekend......but i feel even stronger now.hope you are all well today.

CarolD

Thanks for sharing....

I was the total opposite in my drinking patterns.
I drank publically then went home at bar closing
to call everyone in my phone book!

It was "black cord fever" time ..
I even asked the phone company if they
had a long distance plan that limited service
between midnight and 6 a.m.

And yet...here we are....side by side
learning to live sober! What a blessing!!

Rowan

Hi karrotop,

I can identify with the not drinking in public - that's how it was in the end for me. I became wild and out of control - couldn't stand the blackouts, the remorse the next day, the apologies.
Became easier, for a time, to just drink at home in private. Kids in bed. Figured no one was getting hurt.
Took a while to see the truth. I was a mess.