i yr sober & saturdat drinking
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Join Date: Jul 2007
Posts: 558
I've tried controlled drinking before, it was easy to kid myself I could do it. It always eventually went back to the one drink then anything can happen. Its russian roulette only the odds are definitely not in my favour.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
Control drinking...hmmm...i use to do that...lots of
us have been there done that ...and what was the
result of control drinking....I failed every time....
Feb 90 i went out to drink, less than 1 mi. from home
i ran off the road hitting a concret culvert sitting on
top the ground. I took my 1st and only ride in the back
of an EMS truck and dont remember a thing. Spent
10 day in the hospital with them removing my
punctured spleen so i wouldnt bleed to death.
I heal quite nicely over the next few months with not
drinking and relying on pain pills to cope. Once the
pain disappeared i made a decision to pick up
a drink in Aug. 90. The result of that decision was
to end my miserable life.
No, the failed attempt to end my life resulted
in my family doing an intervention on me sending
me to rehab via the back seat of a police car.
They did for me what i couldnt do for myself
and for them im truely grateful.
My 28 day stay in rehab resulted in me learning
about my disease of alcoholism. I picked up
the tools and knowledge of my disease an was
set on the path of recovery.
I made a decision to go to any lengths to the best
of my ability to stay sober one day at a time.
I became wlling, honest and open-minded to the
principles of recovery set down before us.
In treatment i was told a story about my disease...
they explained that when i stopped drinking i put to
rest this little tiger inside me....that little tiger is
is my disease...as long as i dont drink it will stay
asleep....however the longer i stay sober and grow
in recovery, so does my disease...my little tiger
grows and matures too....
What happens to a little tiger when it begins to
grow? It gets bigger and stronger, right? Soon it
will grow claws and teeth,,,,,...
Can u imagine for a minute what that baby
tiger would look like at a few yrs sober?
If i were to wake my tiger up after almost
17 yrs sleeping....can u imagine what kind
of monster would emerge from me?
It would rip u apart.....tearing and shredding
anything and everything in its path,,,,,
So for me, to keep my tiger asleep i must
remain vigilant with my program....all i have
is one day at a time to stay sober....and as
long as i follow the steps of our program
on a daily bases and give away the knowledge
that was so freely passed on to me all these
yrs.then i have a good chance of staying sober
another 24 hours.
I learned that my disease of alcoholism is
CUNNING BAFFLING AND POWERFUL
and if i should ever get complacint or
laxed in my program....then....
lets just say im just not willing to take
that chance.
Thanks for letting me share.
us have been there done that ...and what was the
result of control drinking....I failed every time....
Feb 90 i went out to drink, less than 1 mi. from home
i ran off the road hitting a concret culvert sitting on
top the ground. I took my 1st and only ride in the back
of an EMS truck and dont remember a thing. Spent
10 day in the hospital with them removing my
punctured spleen so i wouldnt bleed to death.
I heal quite nicely over the next few months with not
drinking and relying on pain pills to cope. Once the
pain disappeared i made a decision to pick up
a drink in Aug. 90. The result of that decision was
to end my miserable life.
No, the failed attempt to end my life resulted
in my family doing an intervention on me sending
me to rehab via the back seat of a police car.
They did for me what i couldnt do for myself
and for them im truely grateful.
My 28 day stay in rehab resulted in me learning
about my disease of alcoholism. I picked up
the tools and knowledge of my disease an was
set on the path of recovery.
I made a decision to go to any lengths to the best
of my ability to stay sober one day at a time.
I became wlling, honest and open-minded to the
principles of recovery set down before us.
In treatment i was told a story about my disease...
they explained that when i stopped drinking i put to
rest this little tiger inside me....that little tiger is
is my disease...as long as i dont drink it will stay
asleep....however the longer i stay sober and grow
in recovery, so does my disease...my little tiger
grows and matures too....
What happens to a little tiger when it begins to
grow? It gets bigger and stronger, right? Soon it
will grow claws and teeth,,,,,...
Can u imagine for a minute what that baby
tiger would look like at a few yrs sober?
If i were to wake my tiger up after almost
17 yrs sleeping....can u imagine what kind
of monster would emerge from me?
It would rip u apart.....tearing and shredding
anything and everything in its path,,,,,
So for me, to keep my tiger asleep i must
remain vigilant with my program....all i have
is one day at a time to stay sober....and as
long as i follow the steps of our program
on a daily bases and give away the knowledge
that was so freely passed on to me all these
yrs.then i have a good chance of staying sober
another 24 hours.
I learned that my disease of alcoholism is
CUNNING BAFFLING AND POWERFUL
and if i should ever get complacint or
laxed in my program....then....
lets just say im just not willing to take
that chance.
Thanks for letting me share.
dum vita est spes est
Join Date: Jan 2007
Location: vita secundum nex
Posts: 287
Audi,
I guess the question I would ask is this, "What is it about alcohol that keeps you coming back to it? ---> What is alcohol providing for you that you can't get from another source?"
If you answer those questions honestly, you'll most likely find out that alcohol only gives you the {insert confidence, charisma, etc. here} you only THOUGHT you didn't have...it goes a bit deeper than that but I have to get back to work, some food for thought my friend.
Peace,
PR
I guess the question I would ask is this, "What is it about alcohol that keeps you coming back to it? ---> What is alcohol providing for you that you can't get from another source?"
If you answer those questions honestly, you'll most likely find out that alcohol only gives you the {insert confidence, charisma, etc. here} you only THOUGHT you didn't have...it goes a bit deeper than that but I have to get back to work, some food for thought my friend.
Peace,
PR
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Northern CA
Posts: 1,733
Audi,
I'm 31 yrs old and have had long periods (years) where I could control my drinking. But I always end up in the same place. When life shakes me as it does everyone my drinking progresses and turns to diasaster everytime. However, I know my father was able to control his drinking. He never drank to hangover after making an ass of himself several times when he was about my age. For me, I can't mess with the stuff anymore. I wish you the best either way.
-Kathleen
I'm 31 yrs old and have had long periods (years) where I could control my drinking. But I always end up in the same place. When life shakes me as it does everyone my drinking progresses and turns to diasaster everytime. However, I know my father was able to control his drinking. He never drank to hangover after making an ass of himself several times when he was about my age. For me, I can't mess with the stuff anymore. I wish you the best either way.
-Kathleen
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