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Hello all,
I found this board while cruising the internet researching alcohol addiction. WOW, this place is incredible!! (first post)
I've read so many similar stories that are so close to mine being addicted to alcohol:
Can't write a check or credit card receipt without shaking and having the signature intelligable.
Waking up each morning so incredibly hung over and yet going to work hung over
Making it a decision to stop drinking at about 11:00 pm so the alcohol won't smell on me while at work (and vodka does smell)
Hiding bottles of vodka and masking them from my wife
Having people at work ask "is everything OK" since I look like s**t
Hiding shakes from people at work
Having people look at me weird (and me thinking they know I'm abusing alcohol)
On and on...............
The cycle has to end somehow.
I'm going to try cold turkey (again) this weekend.
Man does this desease suck!!
RV GTO
I found this board while cruising the internet researching alcohol addiction. WOW, this place is incredible!! (first post)
I've read so many similar stories that are so close to mine being addicted to alcohol:
Can't write a check or credit card receipt without shaking and having the signature intelligable.
Waking up each morning so incredibly hung over and yet going to work hung over
Making it a decision to stop drinking at about 11:00 pm so the alcohol won't smell on me while at work (and vodka does smell)
Hiding bottles of vodka and masking them from my wife
Having people at work ask "is everything OK" since I look like s**t
Hiding shakes from people at work
Having people look at me weird (and me thinking they know I'm abusing alcohol)
On and on...............
The cycle has to end somehow.
I'm going to try cold turkey (again) this weekend.
Man does this desease suck!!
RV GTO
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hi goat,
welcome read some threads people say talk to your doctor first. Its a good idea. Have someone wacth you and keep check on your blood pressure they got some great caring people on here who have some good stuff.Hang around few days people will help you all they can.
welcome read some threads people say talk to your doctor first. Its a good idea. Have someone wacth you and keep check on your blood pressure they got some great caring people on here who have some good stuff.Hang around few days people will help you all they can.
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I went to an AA meeting. I called different groups for a few days, but I got there and after that first meeting back a group of people took me to a members house and we played cards untill 3 am. I had tried a few times to quit, but I had to ask for help from people who understand what alcoholism is. Willingness the key!
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Hi RV, this disease sux ass right enough. Cold turkey is dangerous, I would advise seeing your doctor. Can I suggest you check out the 'stickies' at the top of this forum? There is some good info there.
I am only 18 days sober myself so I know how you are feeling.
You could also consider posting in the 'newcomers' forum, anyhoo-welcome and good luck!
I am only 18 days sober myself so I know how you are feeling.
You could also consider posting in the 'newcomers' forum, anyhoo-welcome and good luck!
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Originally Posted by baggervance 
hi goat,
welcome read some threads people say talk to your doctor first. Its a good idea. Have someone wacth you and keep check on your blood pressure they got some great caring people on here who have some good stuff.Hang around few days people will help you all they can.
welcome read some threads people say talk to your doctor first. Its a good idea. Have someone wacth you and keep check on your blood pressure they got some great caring people on here who have some good stuff.Hang around few days people will help you all they can.
And a sincere thanks to everyone who responded. I have to get my life back.
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Join Date: Nov 2006
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RV we are not doctors, please see one and be totally honest with the doc.
Here is what many of us do know, detoxing with out medical supervision can kill!!!
It can kill you even if you have some one who knows how to help folks get through it, seizures that can lead to a VERY quick and painful death can come on with no warning.
If you just have to go cold turkey I beg of you to please call your local AA hotline and see if they can get some folks to stay with you through it, there are still quite a few old timers around who know how to fairly safely detox even the worst of us. Talk to a doc, there is no reason to put yourself through the possible hell of detox cold turkey and gamble on dying.
Keep in mind that the helping hand of AA is always there to help, all you have to do is ask, you are not alone. We have walked in your shoes, we have been there and done that, we have been in that bottomless pit and we know the way out, and all you have to do is ask.
Here is what many of us do know, detoxing with out medical supervision can kill!!!
It can kill you even if you have some one who knows how to help folks get through it, seizures that can lead to a VERY quick and painful death can come on with no warning.
If you just have to go cold turkey I beg of you to please call your local AA hotline and see if they can get some folks to stay with you through it, there are still quite a few old timers around who know how to fairly safely detox even the worst of us. Talk to a doc, there is no reason to put yourself through the possible hell of detox cold turkey and gamble on dying.
Keep in mind that the helping hand of AA is always there to help, all you have to do is ask, you are not alone. We have walked in your shoes, we have been there and done that, we have been in that bottomless pit and we know the way out, and all you have to do is ask.
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Hey RV,,,I have been where your at to many times to count!! Detoxing alone is a very difficult thing to do,, and as stated very dangerous!! My disease has progressed so far now that when I self detox without medication or medical supervision, I sometimes go into seizures,,, most always suffer dementia, and anymore after long benders go into the DT's!!! Very Very Dangerous,,, becareful!! I've been sober now about 21/2 mos.,,, don't get in here often enough and have only posted a few times!! Wish you the best,, but don't wait,, do it now!!! I used to get up and look at myself in the mirror and say,,,"tomorrow I'm quiting" many many times tomorrow never came!!! But here I am many tomorrows later and I am sober today!!! If you read my posts,, you'll see that being sober doesn't always mean that life gets better real quick,, in fact mine really sucks right now,,, but the only thing that could make this bad situation worse,,, would be if I were to pick up!!! Welcome aboard this train,,,, I'll ride it with ya!!!! Good Luck again!!! Crawlingout
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Hi RV. Great decision! Don't try to do it alone - get as much help and support as you can find. Like you said, the realization that others have gone through the same awful experiences as you is priceless. The help those other people can offer you is invaluable. Good luck, NL.
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Wow RV, it's got you bad ! And it's going to get worse. Soon, you'll be reaching for the bottle first thing in the morning to stop those pesky shakes !
I was at a freakin' JC Penney supplier conference once. Suits and Ties and mover/shakers everywhere. We broke for lunch which was buffet style. I suddenly realized there was NO WAY I could stand in line with a plate in my hand, shaking like a leaf. I begged out (stomach ache or some BS) and found a bar.
That's what you get to look forward to.
I de-toxed several times. The hard part is staying stopped. The only thing I found that works is AA. And I tried just about everything else.
Try it. It's not what you probably think it is. I know I was wrong about AA.
I was at a freakin' JC Penney supplier conference once. Suits and Ties and mover/shakers everywhere. We broke for lunch which was buffet style. I suddenly realized there was NO WAY I could stand in line with a plate in my hand, shaking like a leaf. I begged out (stomach ache or some BS) and found a bar.
That's what you get to look forward to.
I de-toxed several times. The hard part is staying stopped. The only thing I found that works is AA. And I tried just about everything else.
Try it. It's not what you probably think it is. I know I was wrong about AA.
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Welcome RV GTO 
. The weekend isn't here quite yet... you still have time to at least talk to your doctor before going cold turkey. Quitting drinking is admirable...dying while detoxing is condsiderably less appealing.
. The weekend isn't here quite yet... you still have time to at least talk to your doctor before going cold turkey. Quitting drinking is admirable...dying while detoxing is condsiderably less appealing.
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Welcome RV. You are making an incredibly fine decision.
Just reading that takes me back to days I never want to live again. I can remember facing that same dilemma and I can remember the sense of relief (followed almost immediately by the sense of guilt) that came with the escape to the bar. And then after a few, the denial and rationalization would set in and nothing would change.
God, what a freaking nightmare that was. Even if A.A. had turned out to be half as bad as I imagined it to be, it would have been better than that endless downward cycle but of course it was nothing like I imagined it to be and neither is sobriety.
Originally Posted by GlassPrisoner
I suddenly realized there was NO WAY I could stand in line with a plate in my hand, shaking like a leaf. I begged out (stomach ache or some BS) and found a bar.
God, what a freaking nightmare that was. Even if A.A. had turned out to be half as bad as I imagined it to be, it would have been better than that endless downward cycle but of course it was nothing like I imagined it to be and neither is sobriety.
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Welcome RV!
I may be a little late posting, but i hope you stick around.
Sometimes it would take me 3 days to pay the bills. One day to find them, one day to balance the checkbook, and one day to actually write the checks. Been there, done that. Don't have to do it anymore.
Glad you're here!
Blessings to you my friend!
BHJ
I may be a little late posting, but i hope you stick around.
Sometimes it would take me 3 days to pay the bills. One day to find them, one day to balance the checkbook, and one day to actually write the checks. Been there, done that. Don't have to do it anymore.
Glad you're here!
Blessings to you my friend!
BHJ
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