Tom

I first posted on here June 24, which was the first of 12 days sober for me. Then lost it on Day 13. I was feeling so good that I thought I could handle anything. That first day back drinking resulted in a 9-day binge. Imagine that. It just seems to snowball on us once we go back to it.

Anyway, started over fresh yesterday, so back on Day 2. It's amazing how all of my mondays seem better, and all other days for that matter, when not fighting a hangover, fatigue, and feelings of guilt. I'm sure it is no coincidence.

Glad to be back herewith more of an open mind towards all the options available.

Tom

needtobefree

Hi Tom, good to see you back. Congrats on your renewed commitment.

I was reading that sometimes it takes a relapse after an initial commitment to remind ourselves of where alcohol can lead us and that we are unable to control it once we've had that first drink. It sounds like you're doing great :0)

Astro

Welcome back, Tom. I always share that we don't shoot our wounded in recovery. As long as you can make it back and have the desire to stay sober you'll be welcomed with open arms. Just remember, not everyone makes it back. We don't want that to be you.

CarolD

Hi Tom....

Do you have a new plan for sobriety?

Good to see you here with us

Introvrtd1

Same here, Tom.

I guess we are a work in progress.....

Tom

Been studying AA alot, Carol. I have had my own big book for years, and I've dusted it off. Also like to listen to Joe and Charlie alot.

collinsmi

Welcome back Tom!

RedFox

That's exactly what happened to me.

You never do realize how shi**y alcohol makes you feel until you stop drinking for awhile. I sure never did.

stone

Welcome back Tom.

Tom

Exactly, Red. During those 12 days sober, I kept trying to understand how I could have put my body and mind through that torture for so long. When I drank again, I just kept wondering how I could have given up the great feeling of sobriety for sheer misery.

Glad I'm getting a taste of the good life again, and don't want to venture to that other side ever again.

FallGirl

Hi Tom!
I am all to familiar with that pattern - I'll do good for a while, feel good and think I can handle it - then I'm drinking everyday, at least a six pack. ugh.
But I am also on Day 2! Yay for Day 2!
stay strong.

FallGirl

karrotop

welcome back Tom....I also had many stops and starts with alchohol,and each time i slipped,it was harder to get back up...but,i also learned something new about myself each time I tried and failed,so my failures happened for a reason..Each time i got alittle stronger in my resolve to fight the demon.111 days sober this time.You can do it,Tom.....keep coming back to SR.

Grasshopper

Hi and welcome back,

findingout

Welcome back. Sometimes it takes a bit more research to convince us that sober is better. But now you've done the research, believe that the results will always be the same and just stay in. It's better.

parentrecovers

sending encouragement and happy to see you back, k

Tom

Back here for my second day 3, and a successful one at that. It's amazing the night's sleep I had, that feeling I had waking up this morning, and what I got accomplished at work today. A friend asked me out for a beer after work, I and had no problem saying no. The feeling the day after being sober was just too great to give up for a lousy 5-hour buzz.

Thanks all.