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Hello you good folks at S/R!! i am trying getting a sober grip again, town after town job after job, sometimes i get too overwhelmed in my own mind,and just want to give up and drink myself to death..I admit that im intellegent but weak ..my faith is fading and thats all i have ( in short ) left.
oh - sorry - got so hyped by the Larsen pic ...
WELCOME to SR!
there's tons of information here .. might want to read some of the stickys on the tops of the forums ... there's people here who know, really know what it feels like.
You are not alone.
Others will be along, I'm sure to welcome you, too.
WELCOME to SR!
there's tons of information here .. might want to read some of the stickys on the tops of the forums ... there's people here who know, really know what it feels like.
You are not alone.
Others will be along, I'm sure to welcome you, too.
Open Minded
Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: NZ
Posts: 226
Hi and welcome :0)
Have your had a look at the various recovery options?
You can do this, there are so many people here (myself included) that have felt the same way as you explain in your post. I've thought a lot of times that it would be easier just to give up and drink myself into oblivion, but really it's not an option. You are worth it. I've found that each day sober builds on my confidence regarding sobriety.
I'm trying out AA. The first step sounds right up your alley atm :0)
Have your had a look at the various recovery options?
You can do this, there are so many people here (myself included) that have felt the same way as you explain in your post. I've thought a lot of times that it would be easier just to give up and drink myself into oblivion, but really it's not an option. You are worth it. I've found that each day sober builds on my confidence regarding sobriety.
I'm trying out AA. The first step sounds right up your alley atm :0)
Guest
Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Canada
Posts: 4,580
town after town..job after job.. boy does that sound familiar. I gypsied around for 20 years looking for some sort of peace, contentment and sense of belonging. It was a twisting path of pain and disappointment... and I just kept on drinking whilst foolishly believing it was the booze helping me cope...helping me hang on. That was a lie ...it was killing me in every sense of the word. In the end, there was very little left of me... but she cried out in the end.... save me. I did that...well, there was a tremendously benevolent spirit outside myself ...an inexplicable energy extending a hand up outta my hell. I went to AA and was not only provided with powerful knowledge and information but I was also warmly swathed in understanding and compassion there. Keep an open mind.... do what you need to ...embrace it all...or take what you need and leave the rest.
I thought I'd drink myself to death. Until I realized it would take 20 or so years. Hell, I was beat after only 2 years of 24 x 7 drinking.
You sound beat. That's a good thing actually. It was where I had to be also before I finally hung my head and went into the rooms of AA. And you know what ? It was nothing like I expected.
You'll be welcomed by poeple that have been through the same thing. People that know how you feel. And better yet, they'll suggest a solution.
You sound beat. That's a good thing actually. It was where I had to be also before I finally hung my head and went into the rooms of AA. And you know what ? It was nothing like I expected.
You'll be welcomed by poeple that have been through the same thing. People that know how you feel. And better yet, they'll suggest a solution.
Member
Join Date: May 2007
Location: Cumming, Ga
Posts: 665
Welcome Mike. I found hopelessness a great place to start. It was when I was hopelessness that I could truly start a new fresh start. Honesty, willingness, and an open mind became readily available and I became teachable. I had to get my butt back into AA and reclaim the chair I had given up so long ago. I believe it has saved my life. One thing is for certain. I was beaten by wet drunkeness, and then slam dunked by dry drunkeness. I desperately needed a program of recovery if I was going to stay stopped and not be miserable. My way wasn't working, even when I wasn't drinking. There is a way out. Hope this helps.
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