want to quit (first post)
Carrrie, I know all about that anxiety, if I was not lit there were very few things I would do the last 5-6 years of my drinking.
Carrrie, you and DKS sound a lot like me at that age, there was no way in Hades I would drink and drive then, soon there after I would not drive if I had more then 2, by the time I hit 52 when I finally put myself into detox, I kept a cooler with 8 on ice to where I could drive home, I drank and drove for the last 2-3 years of my drinking career all the time, M-F I started drinking the second I got off work at 1PM and continued until at least 5:30 every day, some times much later.
Alcoholism is a progressive disease, the longer I drank, the worse I got and the harder it was to quit. I reached the point where I had to drink to function, there was no choice!
In detox after the fog began to clear from my head enough to where I began to understand what was going on they told me if I wanted a chance to stay sober to go to at least 90 AA meetings in 90 days and get a sponsor! Well I did what they said and here I am almost 10 months later and thanks to AA I am happy, joyous, and free! That and the urge/need to drink is gone! Do not get me wrong, I am still an alcoholic, all it takes is one drink........ to start the cycle all over again.
Getting sober beleive it or not is the easy part, staying sober is the hard part and this is where I have found AA to be key in my recovery, in AA I have learned to live life on lifes terms with out drinking and be happy doing it.
Do not get me wrong, AA is not the only program out there, but it is the one that worked for me. I spent 10 years trying to do it my way, alone! Reading books and reading on the internet did not work, it helped in a way, but not for long. There is no substitute for a real hug, a smile, a mere look of understanding. Rooms full of people who are sober alcoholics that love nothing more then to help a suffering alcoholic get and stay sober..... and it is free!
Carrrie, you and DKS sound a lot like me at that age, there was no way in Hades I would drink and drive then, soon there after I would not drive if I had more then 2, by the time I hit 52 when I finally put myself into detox, I kept a cooler with 8 on ice to where I could drive home, I drank and drove for the last 2-3 years of my drinking career all the time, M-F I started drinking the second I got off work at 1PM and continued until at least 5:30 every day, some times much later.
Alcoholism is a progressive disease, the longer I drank, the worse I got and the harder it was to quit. I reached the point where I had to drink to function, there was no choice!
In detox after the fog began to clear from my head enough to where I began to understand what was going on they told me if I wanted a chance to stay sober to go to at least 90 AA meetings in 90 days and get a sponsor! Well I did what they said and here I am almost 10 months later and thanks to AA I am happy, joyous, and free! That and the urge/need to drink is gone! Do not get me wrong, I am still an alcoholic, all it takes is one drink........ to start the cycle all over again.
Getting sober beleive it or not is the easy part, staying sober is the hard part and this is where I have found AA to be key in my recovery, in AA I have learned to live life on lifes terms with out drinking and be happy doing it.
Do not get me wrong, AA is not the only program out there, but it is the one that worked for me. I spent 10 years trying to do it my way, alone! Reading books and reading on the internet did not work, it helped in a way, but not for long. There is no substitute for a real hug, a smile, a mere look of understanding. Rooms full of people who are sober alcoholics that love nothing more then to help a suffering alcoholic get and stay sober..... and it is free!
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Hi Carrie
I'm new here and just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you. Other people here have been so kind and welcoming, as you have seen.
I am on day 2 of my sobriety and if I think about never drinking again the thought petrifies me. Don't think of never again. Think of you in today. I attended my 2nd AA meeting today and had to push myself like you will, to get there. I'm glad I did and hope you can find it in you to go, somebody made a good suggestion of finding a smaller group. Just listening to other people go through what I do daily was amazing. I see people here who are similar but the 'face to face' thing, however daunting, really brings it home, you're not alone.
Someone gave me a card in AA today and on the back of the card someone had written a message for her and that message read:
Forget yesterday
Forget tomorrow
Stay in today
You shouldn't cringe to come and say you drank last night, have a pat on the back for being honest with us and yourself. It is a tough thing to face up to, I'm fully aware that there may be slips ahead but when I think like that I stop myself, I stay in today.
Hope you keep coming back to let us know how you are.
Take care.
I'm new here and just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you. Other people here have been so kind and welcoming, as you have seen.
I am on day 2 of my sobriety and if I think about never drinking again the thought petrifies me. Don't think of never again. Think of you in today. I attended my 2nd AA meeting today and had to push myself like you will, to get there. I'm glad I did and hope you can find it in you to go, somebody made a good suggestion of finding a smaller group. Just listening to other people go through what I do daily was amazing. I see people here who are similar but the 'face to face' thing, however daunting, really brings it home, you're not alone.
Someone gave me a card in AA today and on the back of the card someone had written a message for her and that message read:
Forget yesterday
Forget tomorrow
Stay in today
You shouldn't cringe to come and say you drank last night, have a pat on the back for being honest with us and yourself. It is a tough thing to face up to, I'm fully aware that there may be slips ahead but when I think like that I stop myself, I stay in today.
Hope you keep coming back to let us know how you are.
Take care.
Hi Carrie!
Don't beat yourself up! At one point I had 365 'Day Ones' in a row! The important part is you know you want to quit, now you need to find it within you to seek out the resources that can help you achieve that. I've only got a few weeks sober, but it's been a good few weeks. Please keep in touch. We all need each other (at least I know I do!) I could never have sobered up on my own. The support I get at AA meetings and the warm thoughts and good advice on this forum play a big part in my recovery.
We are ALL worthy of sobriety.
All my best to you!!!
BHJ
Don't beat yourself up! At one point I had 365 'Day Ones' in a row! The important part is you know you want to quit, now you need to find it within you to seek out the resources that can help you achieve that. I've only got a few weeks sober, but it's been a good few weeks. Please keep in touch. We all need each other (at least I know I do!) I could never have sobered up on my own. The support I get at AA meetings and the warm thoughts and good advice on this forum play a big part in my recovery.
We are ALL worthy of sobriety.
All my best to you!!!
BHJ
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