A Shy Hello
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Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: Ontario, Canada
Posts: 6
A Shy Hello
I suppose there is only so long that you can go on fooling yourself before you realize that you really DO have an addiction, and that the addiction has somehow creeped in over the years and stolen away peices of your heart and soul, forever changing who you *thought* were.
My name is Kris, I'm 27, and female - I am new to the board, and I *know* that now is the time to change my life. I have been using alsohol to numb myself for the past 7 years drinking every other day at least two bottles of wine - and whatever other alcohol happened to be in the house.
I am tired of black outs, regret, humiliation, stupidity, loss of memory, hiding away from the world, distancing myself from my partner, having to drink just to be sexual, being hung over, and looking at the stacks of bottles littering my living room floor.
Yesterday was day one - I made it through. This morning is a new day...I woke up feeling sick and shaky and could not sleep last night. I know it will pass. I have cleaned out all of the bottles, food and wine magazines, and other reminders of alcohol from my house.....its a start.
I'm hoping to find support and a laugh or hug from time to time on the board...its early days so I really need a helping hand from those who have been where I am right now. I feel like an emotional basketcase.......
Just wanted to say hello.....
Hugs,
Kris
PS. I will also be on the Eating Disorders forum, to deal with some other issues - seems like one addiction often likes company.
My name is Kris, I'm 27, and female - I am new to the board, and I *know* that now is the time to change my life. I have been using alsohol to numb myself for the past 7 years drinking every other day at least two bottles of wine - and whatever other alcohol happened to be in the house.
I am tired of black outs, regret, humiliation, stupidity, loss of memory, hiding away from the world, distancing myself from my partner, having to drink just to be sexual, being hung over, and looking at the stacks of bottles littering my living room floor.
Yesterday was day one - I made it through. This morning is a new day...I woke up feeling sick and shaky and could not sleep last night. I know it will pass. I have cleaned out all of the bottles, food and wine magazines, and other reminders of alcohol from my house.....its a start.
I'm hoping to find support and a laugh or hug from time to time on the board...its early days so I really need a helping hand from those who have been where I am right now. I feel like an emotional basketcase.......
Just wanted to say hello.....
Hugs,
Kris
PS. I will also be on the Eating Disorders forum, to deal with some other issues - seems like one addiction often likes company.
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Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: Japan
Posts: 59
Hi ya Kris,
Well done for day one!
I'm a bit of a newbie myself so I too am just starting out on the path to sobriety. I've gone 7 days without a drink now and I'm going to my first AA meeting tomorrow.
I've found this site has helped me loads over the past week and I hope it'll do the same for you.
The bottles laying all over the house, blackouts, etc, sounds all too familiar. I wish you all the best.
Well done for day one!
I'm a bit of a newbie myself so I too am just starting out on the path to sobriety. I've gone 7 days without a drink now and I'm going to my first AA meeting tomorrow.
I've found this site has helped me loads over the past week and I hope it'll do the same for you.
The bottles laying all over the house, blackouts, etc, sounds all too familiar. I wish you all the best.
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Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: east coast
Posts: 1,116
Welcome Kris! Boy I sure do relate! I will see you on the ED thread too 
Welcome to sobriety----welcome to LIFE...you can do it--it's not always easy but drinking is A LOT harder!
Keep posting and know that you are not alone.
Welcome to sobriety----welcome to LIFE...you can do it--it's not always easy but drinking is A LOT harder!
Keep posting and know that you are not alone.
Not the center of the Universe
Join Date: Jun 2004
Location: Orchard Lake, Michigan
Posts: 974
Hey and Welcome Kris.
One thing I believe is that there is not a single thing better you could be doing for yourself right now besides putting down the bottle and finding recovery.
Glad you are here.
One thing I believe is that there is not a single thing better you could be doing for yourself right now besides putting down the bottle and finding recovery.
Glad you are here.
Glad to be here
Join Date: Jun 2006
Location: Florida
Posts: 178
********{kris}}}}} Welcome aboard! I've been where you are and it is definitely not easy, but sobriety is so worth it. The cravings and obsession will get better as time goes on. Hang in there. You can do this!
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Southwest PA USA
Posts: 339
Welcome Kris!
Glad you've decided to post. I found this forum and lurked for many weeks before I decided to start posting. Lots of love, friendship, understanding, and advice.
Brightest Blessings!!
BHJ
Glad you've decided to post. I found this forum and lurked for many weeks before I decided to start posting. Lots of love, friendship, understanding, and advice.
Brightest Blessings!!
BHJ
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Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: Ontario, Canada
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:)
I just wanted to say thank you all so much for the warm welcome - I didn't know what to expect ....but thanks to you all.
I realized today at work, how hard this is going to be - co-workers talking about the long weekend and holidays and most of the talk revolved around drinking and parties......
Got home, and hopped on the board. Brought me some calm and comfort.
I will definately be around....
Hugs to you all.....my day two is almost through.
~Kris
I realized today at work, how hard this is going to be - co-workers talking about the long weekend and holidays and most of the talk revolved around drinking and parties......
Got home, and hopped on the board. Brought me some calm and comfort.
I will definately be around....
Hugs to you all.....my day two is almost through.
~Kris
get it, give it, grow in it
Join Date: May 2007
Location: Calif coast
Posts: 3,167
You can live a different way. This is the fight of your life...I hope you have the courage and determination to do whatever it takes to win it. Get support, go to mtgs. ,go to rehab. Do what it takes to make this your priority. Don't have this as your story when you're 37. You've spent your whole adult life with the bottle. You are still young. Do this now before your body looks and acts like a 14 yr. alcoholic.
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