Powerless
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Powerless
Hi folks,
I have decided to stick around a while after all. There is so much kindness and support here, I don't want to leave.
I went to an AA meeting last night and had a great enlightening that I would like to share. The topic was powerlessness. Being the control freak that I am, the concept was a distant one. There was a lot of talk about being powerless over alcohol. I thought about it for a bit. And I realized, though, I thought I controlled my drinking, I really didn't. It was controlling me. I couldn't stop after one or two and I can't understand anyone who can. Actually, once I started, I could not stop at all. I gain my power over alcohol by realizing I am powerless against it. I just can't take that first drink.
I am beginning to understand my powerlessness in other things too. I can't change people, I can't change the past or the future, or a multitude of other things. So why fret over things? I believe in a HP, I know some here don't and that's OK. But I have to trust in Him and know that He's just going to have to take care of the things that I can't. And for that I am thankful.
The first thing I do in the morning now, is give the day to my HP. Really fast so I don't take any of it back. Then I can relax, enjoy the day and no matter what happens, I do my best and give what I can and let my HP take care of the rest.
I have found great comfort and freedom in this and I can actually enjoy my day. Go figure...
(((Hugs)))
Carol
I have decided to stick around a while after all. There is so much kindness and support here, I don't want to leave.
I went to an AA meeting last night and had a great enlightening that I would like to share. The topic was powerlessness. Being the control freak that I am, the concept was a distant one. There was a lot of talk about being powerless over alcohol. I thought about it for a bit. And I realized, though, I thought I controlled my drinking, I really didn't. It was controlling me. I couldn't stop after one or two and I can't understand anyone who can. Actually, once I started, I could not stop at all. I gain my power over alcohol by realizing I am powerless against it. I just can't take that first drink.
I am beginning to understand my powerlessness in other things too. I can't change people, I can't change the past or the future, or a multitude of other things. So why fret over things? I believe in a HP, I know some here don't and that's OK. But I have to trust in Him and know that He's just going to have to take care of the things that I can't. And for that I am thankful.
The first thing I do in the morning now, is give the day to my HP. Really fast so I don't take any of it back. Then I can relax, enjoy the day and no matter what happens, I do my best and give what I can and let my HP take care of the rest.
I have found great comfort and freedom in this and I can actually enjoy my day. Go figure...
(((Hugs)))
Carol
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Southern California
Posts: 18,436
"The first thing I do in the morning now, is give the day to my HP".
Carol....This has worked for me for almost 11 months!
Simple...and it works.
"Really fast so I don't take any of it back".
Another tool I learned in recovery...if we do take it back...we can
start our day all over again. No matter what the hour...
HP is always there.
Love,
Sherry
(Welcome back!)
Carol....This has worked for me for almost 11 months!
Simple...and it works.
"Really fast so I don't take any of it back".
Another tool I learned in recovery...if we do take it back...we can
start our day all over again. No matter what the hour...
HP is always there.
Love,
Sherry
(Welcome back!)
On a tear
Join Date: Jul 2003
Location: Volcano Country!
Posts: 3,221
Hey Carol... even though I hang out in the other forums, I usually peek in here, and was sad to see your goodbye message. I am also glad you decided to stay... and what a great post! That powerlessness thing is a primary part of my program in Alanon. Thanks for sharing!
(((hugs)))
(((hugs)))
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: UK
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Originally Posted by Iwanttobe1 
I am beginning to understand my powerlessness in other things too. I can't change people, I can't change the past or the future, or a multitude of other things. So why fret over things? I believe in a HP, I know some here don't and that's OK.
Thank you for helping to keep ME sober today with that post!
Follow Directions!
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Fredericksburg, Va.
Posts: 9,730
Thanks Carol, that first step happened for this old drunk before I even got into the rooms, I simply surrendered to King Alcohol, I could fight no more, alcohol had one, I had lost!
Glad to see you staying here hon, great post.
Just keep in mind when some one starts spewing BS it does not mean you have to beleive it! Take what you need hon and leave the rest.
Glad to see you staying here hon, great post.
Just keep in mind when some one starts spewing BS it does not mean you have to beleive it! Take what you need hon and leave the rest.
Hope3
Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Upstate, NY
Posts: 2,155
Originally Posted by hope3
Glad you are here.
God grant me the serenity to change the things
I can, except the things I can't and the wisdom
to know the difference.............Amen, Hope3
God grant me the serenity to change the things
I can, except the things I can't and the wisdom
to know the difference.............Amen, Hope3
Noeller for letting me know...
It should be:
God grant me the Serenity to ACCEPT the things we cannot change;
the Power to CHANGE the things we can; and
the Wisdom to KNOW the difference.....
Hope3
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