I'll do it,... if I don't chicken out!
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I'll do it,... if I don't chicken out!
I'm having a good day today. When I got up, the sun was shining and I'm feeling great. I decided to take a long walk and think about all that is going on in my life right now. I'm very happy that I found this place. I read a lot of stuff and learn a lot. I also love the support I'm getting. Last week I ordered 2 books about alcoholism (one of them being the big book), but they haven't arrived yet. Anyway, the original thought was me taking care of my own problems with the help of you guys and some books. But since one is such a lonely number I decided to go to an AA meeting.
I already made the call. I felt like a little boy who had to go to the headmasters office when I dialed that number. But to my surprize the female voice on the other side of the line was very gentle and friendly. She didn't sound like she was talking to "just another customer". So tonight this boy is going to his first AA meeting,... if I don't chicken out that is.
It think it is the best thing for me though,... in the long run. Yes, I'm sober right now, but to remain sober the rest of your life without any outside help (except you guys of course, but it isn't the same as IRL) is too hard I think. Never somebody you can call when it gets hard. Nobody who really understands you or tells you "You've done a great job so far!".
Right now it is almost 2 p.m. in Belgium. I'll go to the 8 p.m. meeting. I am pretty nervous though.
I already made the call. I felt like a little boy who had to go to the headmasters office when I dialed that number. But to my surprize the female voice on the other side of the line was very gentle and friendly. She didn't sound like she was talking to "just another customer". So tonight this boy is going to his first AA meeting,... if I don't chicken out that is.
It think it is the best thing for me though,... in the long run. Yes, I'm sober right now, but to remain sober the rest of your life without any outside help (except you guys of course, but it isn't the same as IRL) is too hard I think. Never somebody you can call when it gets hard. Nobody who really understands you or tells you "You've done a great job so far!".
Right now it is almost 2 p.m. in Belgium. I'll go to the 8 p.m. meeting. I am pretty nervous though.
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It's going to be just fine, hon!
I'm proud of you !!!
The only way to build a foundation ... is with good tools.
These ... are the best!
Keep us up to date ...
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Hush my brother, the reason the lady did not speak to you like you were another customer is because she is an alcoholic who volunteers her time to man the hotline.
There are very very few people in AA that are paid and they are strictly office folks, they do not man hotlines or the like.
AA is NOT about money, it is about alcoholics helping other alcoholics get and stay sober.
There are very very few people in AA that are paid and they are strictly office folks, they do not man hotlines or the like.
AA is NOT about money, it is about alcoholics helping other alcoholics get and stay sober.
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Remember to shake some hands and get phone numbers, Hush. I'm really happy to hear you're taking this important step.
When I was a newcomer (guess I still am in a way) I looked for the differences between myself and other members. Maybe I was trying to convince myself that I wasn't an alcoholic (?) When I listened and heard the similarities I knew I couldn't do it alone, and the magic and miracles of recovery opened up to me.
When I was a newcomer (guess I still am in a way) I looked for the differences between myself and other members. Maybe I was trying to convince myself that I wasn't an alcoholic (?) When I listened and heard the similarities I knew I couldn't do it alone, and the magic and miracles of recovery opened up to me.
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Originally Posted by Hush007 
It think it is the best thing for me though,... in the long run. Yes, I'm sober right now, but to remain sober the rest of your life without any outside help (except you guys of course, but it isn't the same as IRL) is too hard I think. Never somebody you can call when it gets hard. Nobody who really understands you or tells you "You've done a great job so far!".
Right now it is almost 2 p.m. in Belgium. I'll go to the 8 p.m. meeting. I am pretty nervous though.
Right now it is almost 2 p.m. in Belgium. I'll go to the 8 p.m. meeting. I am pretty nervous though.
Hush,
You said a mouthful. You hit the nail squarely on the head. We all need human contact to get us through this. Not that it can't be done, but I've never run across anyone that was truly an alcoholic who been in recovery for years by going it alone. You are giving you the best chance at starting a new life. Keep it up man, you're doin' swell.
Your in sobriety,
Ed
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