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Hi chris, I will go shopping for paint tomorrow I reckon.
I feel terrible today actually lol. I don't know why but I have terrible depression and have a really bad headache. It's strange that now I am catching up on sleep I should feel so bad. I suppose my brain chemistry is still screwed up, but why is it hitting me now after 12 days of feeling good?
Oh well, nevermind I just have to ride it out for now. If it carries on for more than a few days I am going to the doctors, it is that bad.
Last time I saw him though he said he wouldn't prescribe anything for coming off alcohol as he wanted to leave it to the clinic (the one I have the appt for March 17) f.....ing cheers Doc.
I feel terrible today actually lol. I don't know why but I have terrible depression and have a really bad headache. It's strange that now I am catching up on sleep I should feel so bad. I suppose my brain chemistry is still screwed up, but why is it hitting me now after 12 days of feeling good?
Oh well, nevermind I just have to ride it out for now. If it carries on for more than a few days I am going to the doctors, it is that bad.
Last time I saw him though he said he wouldn't prescribe anything for coming off alcohol as he wanted to leave it to the clinic (the one I have the appt for March 17) f.....ing cheers Doc.
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The NHS is crap Stone,I went to the doc asking for help to give up,he sent me to a therapy clinic were the guy listend to my story of a bottle of vodka per day + beers.He asked me if I,d be happy if I drank half that amount and said it would be a good start.He told me to make a chart of the next weeks drinking and he would see me in a week.I thanked him for his time,needless to say I didn't go back or cut down,in fact I probably drank more thinking I was definately a lost cause. Still that was then eh!
Stone are you taking on board enough fluids? dehidration causes headaches!
When I got to about 14 days I was so pissed off,it was almost as if I was bored with the whole thing,i'd loved the glow that early days brought,the whole winning thing it was almost as if i'd reached my goal,if you like the newness had worn off.
I held on to one thing though stone,i'd actualy started to like me somthing that I hadn't done since I was about 13 (first drink) and self hate had led me back to drink every time i'd tried to stop before.
So armed with that and my renewed belief in AA here I am today. Day56!
and it does get better Stoney.
Stick with it mate your worth it!
chris
Stone are you taking on board enough fluids? dehidration causes headaches!
When I got to about 14 days I was so pissed off,it was almost as if I was bored with the whole thing,i'd loved the glow that early days brought,the whole winning thing it was almost as if i'd reached my goal,if you like the newness had worn off.
I held on to one thing though stone,i'd actualy started to like me somthing that I hadn't done since I was about 13 (first drink) and self hate had led me back to drink every time i'd tried to stop before.
So armed with that and my renewed belief in AA here I am today. Day56!
and it does get better Stoney.
Stick with it mate your worth it!
chris
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Lol, there are some idiots in the NHS aren't there? Make a chart lol!
This guy is a locum, my normal Doc got suspended not for malpractice but for something outside of being a GP, he was great but this new guy doesn't give a sh*t.
I know what you mean about the newness wearing off but this is physical/chemical, I have suffered with depression my whole life and can tell difference between feeling down and proper depression.
It is a shame I couldn't get the appt at the clinic at the same time I quit, instead of having to wait 6 weeks. They sent a pamphlet with tips on cutting down until I could see them! Don't they get it? If I could cut down I wouldn't have f...ing problem, same as your chart guy!.
I was getting so out of control I just had to quit when I did. I am feeling pretty angry with them all atm.
As for liquids, I drink about 2 litres of water a day as well as the odd cup of tea etc. I tend to get headaches anyway sometimes.
Hi tj, I agree. I am looking into swapping Docs asap.
This guy is a locum, my normal Doc got suspended not for malpractice but for something outside of being a GP, he was great but this new guy doesn't give a sh*t.
I know what you mean about the newness wearing off but this is physical/chemical, I have suffered with depression my whole life and can tell difference between feeling down and proper depression.
It is a shame I couldn't get the appt at the clinic at the same time I quit, instead of having to wait 6 weeks. They sent a pamphlet with tips on cutting down until I could see them! Don't they get it? If I could cut down I wouldn't have f...ing problem, same as your chart guy!.
I was getting so out of control I just had to quit when I did. I am feeling pretty angry with them all atm.
As for liquids, I drink about 2 litres of water a day as well as the odd cup of tea etc. I tend to get headaches anyway sometimes.
Hi tj, I agree. I am looking into swapping Docs asap.
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Hi Stone!
We have good days we have bad days. I prefer having good sober days and bad sober days, to having bad drunk days!
Keep doing the right thing. Quitting drinking is easier than learning how to live sober.
We have good days we have bad days. I prefer having good sober days and bad sober days, to having bad drunk days!
Keep doing the right thing. Quitting drinking is easier than learning how to live sober.
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Hi Paul This has been the first really hard day, and I mean really hard. No harder than everyone has to go through I am sure. You have to really want it don't you? I am glad I breezed through the first 12 days, I enjoyed the buzz of quitting. I mentioned the honeymoon period being over befor? I always knew this was coming. Something has changed in me, that sounds like the ******** we all tell ourselves when we gear ourselves up to quitting. Something has changed though. I will win.
This has been the first really hard day, and I mean really hard. No harder than everyone has to go through I am sure. You have to really want it don't you? I am glad I breezed through the first 12 days, I enjoyed the buzz of quitting. I mentioned the honeymoon period being over befor? I always knew this was coming. Something has changed in me, that sounds like the ******** we all tell ourselves when we gear ourselves up to quitting. Something has changed though. I will win.
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Hi Stone, soz you've had a baden today mate,But Stone as bad as its been today your posts on the other threads have been meaningfull and positive,a bonus for you to hold on to!.I know you say that you have had problems in the past with mental health issues and your right to look out for tell tale signs of there return.But for the moment just put it down to the changes your mind is undergoing while its recovering and your doing real good at the mo.
Anyways thanx for the tip about Norton, got a guy coming tommorrow evening to sort it out,i'll mention what you said to him.
Oh well up the wooden hill now, Another victory over alcohol today I feel !
Stay strong.
chris
Anyways thanx for the tip about Norton, got a guy coming tommorrow evening to sort it out,i'll mention what you said to him.
Oh well up the wooden hill now, Another victory over alcohol today I feel !
Stay strong.
chris
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Hi Stone,,,,,,,,,,,I had the early hi around day 7 through
10,, then I cried at everything...........then I felt a little from life again
then Around 30 days, I wanted a drink,,,I came on here and said,,,
HELP.......Of course all the wonderful peps here helped........
and for the last month 60 through now, I'm close to 90...
I am on this incredible high on life,,,
How it will work for you I don't know.
But hold on to your hat, for you are on the ride
of your life, stay on the wagon, my friend........
Hugs ((((((((((((hope3)))))))))
10,, then I cried at everything...........then I felt a little from life again
then Around 30 days, I wanted a drink,,,I came on here and said,,,
HELP.......Of course all the wonderful peps here helped........
and for the last month 60 through now, I'm close to 90...
I am on this incredible high on life,,,
How it will work for you I don't know.
But hold on to your hat, for you are on the ride
of your life, stay on the wagon, my friend........
Hugs ((((((((((((hope3)))))))))
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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Stone I am now at day 161 and am still noticing changes both mentally and physically, the neat thing is lately all of the changes have been for the good. Funny thing is after spending 40 years drinking I have no idea what normal is when it comes to being a little depressed or high on life!!! I sure have been high as a kite on life since getting sober and working my steps though.
Spirituality I have always felt has been reserved for those of us who have already been through hell and do not want to go back! Trust me when I say getting spiritual for me has had nothing to do with going to church or reading religous literature, it is knowing that there is more to it then just myself.
Spirituality I have always felt has been reserved for those of us who have already been through hell and do not want to go back! Trust me when I say getting spiritual for me has had nothing to do with going to church or reading religous literature, it is knowing that there is more to it then just myself.
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Hi Stone, you are not alone,,,,,,,,,,,,
Lean on me........
I'll be your freind, I'll help you
carry on..........for, it won't be long,,
till I'm going to need,,,,,,,,,,you..
So just call on me brother................
((((((((((((((((hope3)))))))))))))
Lean on me........
I'll be your freind, I'll help you
carry on..........for, it won't be long,,
till I'm going to need,,,,,,,,,,you..
So just call on me brother................
((((((((((((((((hope3)))))))))))))
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What's going on today stone? Thinking about you. I was thinking about your comment about feeling angry. You have to try to let go of that. It doesn't make you feel any better holding on to the anger... accomplishes nothing at all. We had an evening during IOP devoted to anger and resentment so I'm passing it along to you. Now... just don't ask me how to let it go. If I knew that, I'd be rich 
. I do know that drinking doesn't help with the anger, or with letting it go.
. I do know that drinking doesn't help with the anger, or with letting it go.
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