Vodkaddict

mainly beacuse I failed at quitting. However, I am now at the point where I have to. My husband figured it out and while I don't think he knows the exact amount he knows it was pretty bad.

The icing on the cake was my checkup today - the doctor was very concerned about my liver panels and my BP was a bit high. I confessed my problem to him and admitted that at this point I was scared to stop because I was afraid of the withdrawals.

He told me that I should get through it ok and encouraged me to take Xanax 3x daily which should help with any symptoms. I am willing to give it a try - I don't want to ruin my health.

Wish me luck. I am dying for a drink right now but even I wanted to sneak it (just to finish the small amount left in the house) I know my husband will smell it on my breath and I am too tired for a fight. I haven't yet told him about my bloodwork and my talk with my doctor.

Please wish me luck. I HAVE to do this.

miss communicat

i wish you luck, love and sobriety!

just for today, do not drink.

CarolD

Glad to see you here again
and many of us had false starts
before we finally quit.

We do recover...so can you!

parentrecovers

keep posting! blessings, k

Joi

Ooo I feel ya. I hate that inner struggle and knowing that I don't have the will to throw out that last bit of vodka and hiding the smell and knowing there will be a fight. We both know there is no instant "cure all". I get through these situations by telling myself, "it WILL get better. . . just not today." Then I give myself permission to feel sad or weak or angry or whatever and face it sober rather than trying to numb all the crap with more crap disguised in a pretty clear bottle whose icy liquid is oh so enticing.

Vodkaddict

I *did* drink that last bit last night but it was a very small amount and now it is GONE. I need to be free of temptation while home.

Today my family and I went to NYC for the day and in the past I would ALWAYS order a beer with lunch. I know it is not the same as drinking tons and tons of vodka but I wanted to be able to not order anything and so I didn't. I had seltzer with lemon.

Now, here I sit at a time when normally I'd be slurping down at least 8 oz of raspberry vodka I'm NOT. I am drinking lemon lime seltzer and I am about to go up and watch TV instead of hiding down here drinking.

Yay! ONE day down, many more to go!

chrisj728

Congrats on getting through day one VA,
Just take it one day at a time or minute at a time if you have to.
It will get easier!
Stay strong
chris

hope3

Hi vodkaaddict(not anymore), Keep keeping on and posting((((hope3)))))