The best laid plans...
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Hi Hope, I have felt ill today, sort of like the start of a cold with a bad headache. I went to bed for a while and feel OK now. Doing OK really, not thinking about things too much. 
How are you?
How are you?
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I'm exhausted, I was just on my way to bed and thought I'd check and see if you got my post. And you did. sorry to hear you're not feeling so good, theres alot of colds and flu going around in our area as well as nothern Canada. I hope you feel better tommorrow, goodnight Stonerat, sleep tight.
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Good morning stonerat! I just had a song pop into my head, its by Fleetwood
Mac.......Don't stop thinking about tommorrow,
I like the chorus in it:
Don't stop thinking about tommorrow
Don't stop--cause it i'll soon be here
Yesterdays gone--yesterdays gone..
But stonerat, while you are thinking about tommorrow don't forget
to live today.......
Have a great day! P.S. we are suppose to have a wind chill
of up to 40 below today, can I borrow your blanket? Ha
Mac.......Don't stop thinking about tommorrow,
I like the chorus in it:
Don't stop thinking about tommorrow
Don't stop--cause it i'll soon be here
Yesterdays gone--yesterdays gone..
But stonerat, while you are thinking about tommorrow don't forget
to live today.......
Have a great day! P.S. we are suppose to have a wind chill
of up to 40 below today, can I borrow your blanket? Ha
Better I hope.
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Originally Posted by stonerat 
Hi Hope, (and Taz), I don't mind the cold too much, I find the landscape so beautiful. I love snow and ice but we in the UK dont see it so much, scotland is another story, but don't mention it 
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It's probably spring to some people here, but it is about as cold as it gets here in the UK.
And yes, I did a days work and got paid and feel pretty good
and I am going to earn a bit tomorrow too.
And yes, I did a days work and got paid and feel pretty good
and I am going to earn a bit tomorrow too.
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Hi stonerat. as to your Its the "Felt good anyway" part that makes it all worth wild... at least it woud be if we didn't need money to survive.
As a newly teacher assistant my salary is 16,000 a year. Thank goodness we have a contract that will bring it up to about 20,000 a year in three years.
If my lover didn't make the money she does, I would have to go back to my old sales career, where money was plenty, but my soul suffered so.......
I am so thankful to be doing something I love to do, teach children.
It is such a good feeling to be productive and work, it showed in your words stonerat..Hugs..........Hope3.
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I got a days work today-£40/ or $75?. Felt good anyway
As a newly teacher assistant my salary is 16,000 a year. Thank goodness we have a contract that will bring it up to about 20,000 a year in three years.
If my lover didn't make the money she does, I would have to go back to my old sales career, where money was plenty, but my soul suffered so.......
I am so thankful to be doing something I love to do, teach children.
It is such a good feeling to be productive and work, it showed in your words stonerat..Hugs..........Hope3.
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[QUOTE=gypsy tears;1188744]I HATE COLD WEATHER... you all are crazy 
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I deffinitely don't like 30 below cold weather, thats for sure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aperfect winter day for me would be in the high 20's with a fresh foot of snow on the ground.
lol, hugs Hope3.
.I deffinitely don't like 30 below cold weather, thats for sure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aperfect winter day for me would be in the high 20's with a fresh foot of snow on the ground.
lol, hugs Hope3.
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Hi gypsy and Hope
I really appreciate you guys dropping by, it means a huge amount to me. I am sorry to say I have been drinking over the last couple of days. I am still determined to stop and I hate feeling the 'morning after' remorse. I wont be drinking today.
I really appreciate you guys dropping by, it means a huge amount to me. I am sorry to say I have been drinking over the last couple of days. I am still determined to stop and I hate feeling the 'morning after' remorse. I wont be drinking today.
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Originally Posted by stonerat
Hi gypsy and Hope
I really appreciate you guys dropping by, it means a huge amount to me. I am sorry to say I have been drinking over the last couple of days. I am still determined to stop and I hate feeling the 'morning after' remorse. I wont be drinking today.
I really appreciate you guys dropping by, it means a huge amount to me. I am sorry to say I have been drinking over the last couple of days. I am still determined to stop and I hate feeling the 'morning after' remorse. I wont be drinking today.
Stonerat,.....throughout this thread, you said to us (and to yourself) that you would try out AA. Yet,...you have not. What you ARE still doing, however, is binge drinking. You do not see a relation? You arent doing "whatever it takes" to get sober. Thats why you arent sober. Go to a meeting. This "I must continue to drink until I can get into detox or rehab" approach is just a way for you to keep drinking. Im not judging you,...I did the same thing. Every single alcoholic I met in the treatment center I went into did the exact same thing too. Its a mental game we play with ourselves. We keep telling ourselves that we 'need' to drink in order to make it to the point that we can get better. It justifies it for us. Without the justification,...the guilt and depression is too much for us. I know you mean well,...but, you are just fooling yourself. You need to stop drinking...NOW. Go to the doctor. Let him prescribe something for withdrawals. That way,...you can go into rehab without needing to "detox". You can jump right into the classes rehab has to offer without waiting around for 4 days in some bed detoxing. Every drink you have is the one that leads you to the next. You cant get sober that way. Thousands of drunks have done it your way and it never works. Dont let your addiction determine your recovery. Take your life back. You deserve it.
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Originally Posted by stonerat
To cut a long story short, he is referring me to a clinic for home detox and some sort of counselling/support.
The bad thing is, I don't know when it will happen and he wouldn't even give me a ball-park idea of how long I will be waiting to get in.
He wont prescribe anything to help as he wants the clinic to handle all that.
The bad thing is, I don't know when it will happen and he wouldn't even give me a ball-park idea of how long I will be waiting to get in.
He wont prescribe anything to help as he wants the clinic to handle all that.
I'm not sure where stonerat stands with regards to AA... but I believe this is about the last he had in the form of medical advice from his doctor.
Hey stonerat... I hope today finds you well.
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