Daily Reflections for 2/4/2013
 

Sometimes A.A. comes harder to those who have lost or rejected faith than to those who never had any faith at all, for they think they have tried faith and found it wanting. They have tried the way of faith and the way of no faith.

TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 28

I was so sure God had failed me that I became ultimately defiant, though I knew better, and plunged into a final drinking binge. My faith turned bitter and that was no coincidence. Those who once had great faith hit bottom harder. It took time to rekindle my faith, though I came to A.A. I was grateful intellectually to have survived such a great fall, but my heart felt callous. Still, I stuck with the A.A. program; the alternatives were too bleak! I kept coming back and gradually my faith was resurrected.

I will keep my faith going..

It is a slow process. I am impatient at times. But every day gets better in some form or another. My perception of life is improving.

I didn't have a true faith before getting into AA. I have one now that keeps me sober, through a loving God who has brought me from the depths of hell to a place where I actually make a difference.