Faltering on step 5
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Originally Posted by Jeni26 
Thankyou V. You make a lot of sense. There is still a part of me that hangs onto control. MY will needs to take a back seat now. My life is unmanageable in its present form. I juggle too much and my career and work commitments take precedence over sobriety too often. I don't sleep well because my brain is too active.
I over-think, I don't focus, I get easily offended.
I'm praying for guidance with this now. I haven't got anyone else really I could ask to listen to me as my meetings are mainly attended by men.
I'm sober and have no desire to drink. I don't feel I am about to relapse but I need to do something.
I recognise the huge strides I have made in lots of ways and I've lost a lot of the fear that ruled my life in some areas. I'm far more confident and less anxious. I just need to move this forward now.
I want what the old timers in my group have. I need to take my lead from them.
I over-think, I don't focus, I get easily offended.
I'm praying for guidance with this now. I haven't got anyone else really I could ask to listen to me as my meetings are mainly attended by men.
I'm sober and have no desire to drink. I don't feel I am about to relapse but I need to do something.
I recognise the huge strides I have made in lots of ways and I've lost a lot of the fear that ruled my life in some areas. I'm far more confident and less anxious. I just need to move this forward now.
I want what the old timers in my group have. I need to take my lead from them.
i can still have times i do the struggle when i get a lot on my plate. what usually comes to mind is 1st things 1st. but man!! then i gott think about whats 1st, then im off to the mental rodeo!!
IMo yer doin the right thing: you see how far you have come by doin the footwork.
and ya know what the solution is for what is goin on now.God brought ya to it, He'll take ya through it as long as ya keep on trudgin.
keep it up!! its the road to happy destiny and we are with you in spirit!
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Originally Posted by Jeni26
Thankyou V. You make a lot of sense. There is still a part of me that hangs onto control. MY will needs to take a back seat now. My life is unmanageable in its present form. I juggle too much and my career and work commitments take precedence over sobriety too often. I don't sleep well because my brain is too active.
I over-think, I don't focus, I get easily offended.
I'm praying for guidance with this now. I haven't got anyone else really I could ask to listen to me as my meetings are mainly attended by men.
I'm sober and have no desire to drink. I don't feel I am about to relapse but I need to do something.
I recognise the huge strides I have made in lots of ways and I've lost a lot of the fear that ruled my life in some areas. I'm far more confident and less anxious. I just need to move this forward now.
I want what the old timers in my group have. I need to take my lead from them.
I over-think, I don't focus, I get easily offended.
I'm praying for guidance with this now. I haven't got anyone else really I could ask to listen to me as my meetings are mainly attended by men.
I'm sober and have no desire to drink. I don't feel I am about to relapse but I need to do something.
I recognise the huge strides I have made in lots of ways and I've lost a lot of the fear that ruled my life in some areas. I'm far more confident and less anxious. I just need to move this forward now.
I want what the old timers in my group have. I need to take my lead from them.
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It is not easy I have been in therapy and played mind games until I entered PTTSD with an ex-Marine DI. He did not take my crap best thing that happened to me. I had to look into the mirror of my soul. Different for all of us. Choose the path that works for you and work it.
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Originally Posted by Jeni26
No. I didn't say or suggest that there were only 2 women in AA in the whole of South East England.
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I'm so happy and filled with a sense of peace and a sort of stillness and calm.
That from someone whose head and emotions are all over the place usually.
I just feel different.
That from someone whose head and emotions are all over the place usually.
I just feel different.
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Something like this Jeni?....I'm glad you got it done....Onward.
We pocket our pride and go to it, illuminating every twist of character, every dark cranny of the past. Once we have taken this step, withholding nothing, we are delighted. We can look the world in the eye. We can be alone at perfect peace and ease. Our fears fall from us. We begin to feel the nearness of our Creator. We may have had certain spiritual beliefs, but now we begin to have a spiritual experience. The feeling that the drink problem has disappeared will often come strongly. We feel we are on the Broad Highway, walking hand in hand with the Spirit of the Universe.
We pocket our pride and go to it, illuminating every twist of character, every dark cranny of the past. Once we have taken this step, withholding nothing, we are delighted. We can look the world in the eye. We can be alone at perfect peace and ease. Our fears fall from us. We begin to feel the nearness of our Creator. We may have had certain spiritual beliefs, but now we begin to have a spiritual experience. The feeling that the drink problem has disappeared will often come strongly. We feel we are on the Broad Highway, walking hand in hand with the Spirit of the Universe.
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