concreteangel

Hi,
I am 21 and grew up with an alcoholic father. He was/is very violent. My mom is in denial in every form of the word. I put myself into counseling over a year and a half ago. I have a awesome therapist (who sat with me for 2 1/2 hrs on Fri, while I completely emotionally broke down). I used cutting & burning as a coping mechanism for 3 or 4 years, and haven't cut in a long time, I think it's up to 240 something. I am a perfectionist and have struggled with eating issues as well. I am having a hard time lately with everything, flashbacks of rages and hurt. So I figured I would join the board. That is my little intro...


Jess

journeygal

Hi Jess and welcome!

I think it's awesome that you put yourself in therapy at such a young age. You took a big step and it seems you've made a lot of progress. A lot of us can relate to the pain and anger that comes when we start dealing with our childhoods. I'm glad you found us and I hope you keep coming back.

You may also want to check out the Eating Disorders forum here.

Take care and hugs,
JG

FeelingLost

Welcome Jess. I am new here as well, and finding the boards are a sanity check for me when I want to pull my hair out.

I agree with JG and think it's great that you are focussed on healing at such a young age. It's never too late, but I do wish I had put my recovery first a long time ago!

JT

Welcome Jess!

You have found a good place. Take the tour of the forums...many of us post in more than one.

Make yourself at home!
Hugs,
JT

morgy

Jess- I am a 19 year old male and I have had common experiences.

My dad is also an alcoholic, but not really a violent one (physically). He is mostly manipulative and decietful.

I cut myself many times over the years, and i've found the strength to somehow stop as well.

i have purged up to 40 lbs in one bout of starvation...

We should talk sometime.

giblert

Hi Jess! I'm Lisa, new to this board too, wanted to say hi. I grew up with a violent alcoholic father too and have been working on these issues for about 8 years now and I still get rage and rage and rage! Every time I think I've gotten to the bottom of it, there's more. Hang in there.

JT

Welcome Lisa,

You say you have been working on this for some time? We would love to hear from you!

Hugs,
JT

TiffanyRenee

Hi Jess, I'm new to this whole thing too and I'm 21 also. I have an abusive, manipulative, angry, bitter alcoholic mother. I to have put myself in therapy and i have made some progress. It seems like the pain will never end sometimes. I know what it's like. Hang in there...

Tiffany