Feeling down
 

I'm feeling pretty bad today, and just need to vent.....
My mom, who is basically my main support system, is gone on vacation so I've been sitting in her house alone for the last few days. My boyfriend, who was suppose to drive down to stay with me, called me last night--drunk--telling me how upset he is with his life, and how sorry he is. My dad is out drinking for St. Patricks day today...I'm just feeling depressed and alone. I'm trying not to play the victim and feel so bad for myself....but I do. I dont know what to do with myself today.
Well thanks for listening...
Much love
Stephanie

What to do with yourself today:

repeat the following phrases:

"I am not responsible for the decisions of others"
"I didn't cause it, I can't control it, and I can't cure it."
"I am only responsible for my own actions."
(similarly) "Only *I* am responsible for my actions and my own happiness."

Then do something totally pampering for yourself and try not to think about what everyone else is doing and whether or not what they're doing is good for them or not.

Take yourself out to see a movie, popcorn/coke and the whole shebang. Or rent a good long movie that you doubt anyone else would ever sit through with you and watch it (A&E's Pride and Prejudice is a movie I like for when I'm feeling kind of like you are). Go ahead and cocoon yourself with things YOU enjoy. Get chinese take-out and a pint of ice cream and treat yourself.

Take care of you. Let everyone else take care of everyone else.

You can start your day over anytime you want...ya know.

Thank you Ginger....you always have such great advice...really!!
I didnt really realize that the actions of others were actually what was making me feel down today....I just thought I was feeling down just because. Well now its like, duh, this makes sense. *I am the only one responsible for my own happiness* It's just hard to find the energey when I'm feeling down....I think I'll try to get up and go shopping or something....
Thanks again for your help.
Much love

Thank you also to SaTiT~ Thank you for reminding me of this.... a shift in attitude is all it takes....
:o)

:c041: Hmmm let's see...what's first....

:Val004: Here's a hug for ya Stephanie

Now what to do....

I went out and got a job...lol...really..ill start
Tuesday at a Bakery here in Baton Rouge.

Then i went out a bought some scented oil and
candles and deffuser....its a little glass stand
that u place ur scented candle tart in and light
a tea candle underneath it and wait for the wonderful
scent to emerge. : ) U can also use the oils too...

Since its cooler outside, i opened my front windows
of my apt. to allow my 2 cats to look out...

and i have a life time movie on....

Later ill fix something neat to eat and either
go to an 8pm meeting or crawl up in my comfy
chair and watch more movies... : )

Im learning how to enjoy myself these
days single since im separated from
my husband...

He's remains in Houston while im basking in
the joys of my home town here in Baton Rouge. :)

What else can i say...lol

Im an Alcoholic....

Thank you everyone...I desperetly needed this support! I am so glad I have this website...and all of you.
Well, I somehow gathered up my energy and I'm going to Target to buy myself some pretty things. Hopefully I can keep my mind off the negative things others are doing....and not let it effect me.
Thank you again XOXO

((((((HUGS))))))) I feel you sweetie! working on my 4th step today and wrote 4 pages just on my mom and still going lol...haven't got to my dad! Take care of yourself today! Do things just for you with NO guilt

Layla.....Just checking in with ya to see
how u are doing? Did you make it to Target
today? I had gone There earlier before u
wrote u were going. :) I found 2 tops ..
one for my new job...just a plain white one
and a cute black babydoll top...

I can always find a little something there to
make my day.

Hope u found something nice for urself. : )

Take care.

aasharon90: Thank you for thinking of me! Well, today went a little better after I got out of the house for a bit....I did make it to Target and got some cute things.
Unfortunelty it all went down hill again later tonight....my boyfriend keeps calling and saying "I'll be over in an hour".....and then an hour later he says ....."Ill be there in an hour". Finally he says...."I will for sure be there before midnight". Then he lied and told me he had to go home to take care of his little brothers, and I find out that hes actaully out drinking & buying drugs(he's an alcoholic). I called him and said..."I have had enough of this, and I'm not putting up with it anymore." Ive have been crying all night since then. Ugh..... Im trying to keep my head up about this, but its hard....and it hurts. I dont know what to do. I think I will tell him tommorow that I dont want to see him again unless he can PROVE to me he can go to AA and stop drinking. It's like, everytime he appoligizes to me, it means nothing....becuase I forgive him and he just does it again. I dont know....
Anyways, THANK YOU AGAIN for all your caring support and advice!
Much love ~Steph

How are things going for you today Steph...?
Hopefully you be in a happy place doing things
that make you happy....surround urself with
positive, happy people....family ...friends....

My husband married me at the beginning stages
of my disease and neither of us saw what was
to happen down the road....until it hit all of us.

Thank God he and his family had some sort of
sense to seek professional help to guide them
thru intervention...

I was not trustworthy to myself nor my family.....
but over time I have proven time and time again
that I can stay sober one day at a time as long
as I follow the stepes provided to me in recovery....

Being in a relationship or marriage where one is
sick is not easy....it takes the entire family or
other person willing to get get help and knowledge
of this disease in order to cope with each other....

My family is supportive of me, but they will never
understand truely what an alcoholic is because
none of them r one...

But if u love someone enough to go to any lenghts
to stay together then u will find the help to take
care of urself and tools to understand the other
person that is sick.

Take care of urself because you are that important. :)

raise and shine...sunshine