Marriedtoit,
I agree with Constant, who said if this works while you're getting your plan in order, then go for it. If what you are doing now is giving you some peace while you figure out what you want to do, don't beat yourself up about it. Those people who ask you why you do what you do aren't living in your shoes and they do not understand, nor do you have to answer to them.
I did the same thing with my first H when I'd decided I was leaving for good. I stopped fighting, stopped yelling, kept my mouth shut, did whatever it took to keep the peace, while I made my plans to leave. If I hadn't have done it that way, I may not ever have been able to get out safely.
Best wishes,