Hang on Tammie,
I'm at work and will be home at midnight. If you're still awake we can talk then. Call a crisis line if you need too. Make an excuse that you're going to the store and use a payphone. You can PM anyone here to talk to you.
You're important to us and your family. Don't give up. It will get better. I've been where you are and I'm ok now. Don't lose hope.
http://suicidal.com/
Hugs,
MG