Great thread!
What do you believe caused your substance abuse behavior?
I was raised in an environment where self medicating irresponsibly was the norm, added to being in HS in the 70s, playing in a band, etc... The recreational use of cocaine became a staple in my daily diet, then it became an addition.
Where do you believe the power comes from to change?
When I faced the reality of the consequences fast approaching me. The power came from myself.
What is the source of motivation to change,
Didn't like the direction my life was heading in.
what sustains it
Forgot all about it basically. After about two years of struggeling w/ abstinence, the urges dissapeared as I moved on with my life. Jobs, family, kids. Been clean since 1983.
and what do you rely on when you have doubts or ambivalence?
Never really thought about it. I guess I regarded it as another life, a life time ago.