Wow, great courage to share that here, well done. So the drinking is becoming a major problem for you ... ?? I found that until I changed what I put into my body - took out the alcohol - things just kept getting worse. I am a good person sober and the only thing with me is that I can not drink alcohol, it is my challenge in life to realise that and do something about it. There is plenty of help around, I hope you stick around and post whenever you need to!!
love,
Brigid
