((((((rosemary)))))
I had a relationship just the same. It was my first husband. We partied and had lots of fun together before we had our 2 children. When they came along I out gre the partying stage and wanted to be at home with them. He always wanted a babysitter and I didn't so he left me home most of the time. He drank among other things and I out grew him. I grew up and he never did. That lasted about 7 years and then I decided I couldn't take it anymore so I left. The decision is yours to make. It sounds like you are miserable.
Thinking of you tonight,
2many2count