I believe I have a disease.
I get the power to change fromthe desire to change, the collective experience of those that came before me and my own experience.
THe motivation to change for me comes from the life I have lived and not wanting to return to that life. It's sustained by the change I see in my life and the desire to change more, when I have doubts I consider my options, either go back to where I came from or hold on and try to learn from the people that were here before me and hopefully I get through it, when I feel ambivalant I muscle my way through it and continue to do what I have done in the past to get me to where I am today and it passes.