Taira, that's a real good list, I think I'll write some of it down, Like you said..to practice while not so damned stressed so to be beter able when you are. Right when i think i've conquered suicidal depression it comes right back. I know it's hard for my familty to understand. my husband thinks it is just me "playing games" and it hurts so bad so deep when he says this, it's like I just need to do it too prove that I am not suicidally depressed as a prank...I am in extreme pain. Thanks for posting this.