minnie, you're right...I am tuning my BS meter....it is a hard thing to do. It's hard to look at all the BS and realize I put up with it. I feel sad about that but that's okay. For once, I'm sad for myself, not sad about him. I can't believe I would have loved myself so little and put him above so many things in my life. I can't believe I called it love and thought my world would end without him. I know his behavior is about him, not me....but, mine is about me, not him. The fact that I used to get so upset over his is just so insane to me now. I feel quiet about it inside if that makes sense.
It's as if he has his own rules you have to live up to.......but those rules change as he decides they should or need to. I tried so hard to live up to them. The turn arounds always worked and I came out the bad guy.
Putting back the pieces is painful but it has to be worth the prize.