Well a few weeks ago, my son was asked to leave treatment. (noncompliance) He spent a total of 10 days there. Things were going well since then up until the other night when we found him, he was smashed and with mixing alcohol and his meds, I'm not surprised. I did what every mother should do, I called EMS to do a medical check. They brought him to the hospital to check him out. The hospital ended up doing another 72 hour hold, and he's due out anyday now. (not sure when with the holiday weekend) BUT the county was going to step in if he did something like this again and put a 6 month hold on him. Problem is, we're relocating this Wednesday across to North Dakota. They started the hold process, but now since we're leaving the county, they lose control of the situation and said there's not much they can do. I feel completely powerless! He hurts himself unintentionally when he drinks and doesn't even realize what can happen to him. Get this, he told me I should have just left him when I found him the way I did.
I'm terrified he's going to do this again, and we may not be around to find him next time.
I'm terrified I'm going to lose my son. I'm just plain terrified! In the meantime, I'm reading everything I can get my hands on about detachment, codependancy, and almost feel like I should start the grieving process of losing my son. I'm in so much pain, along with the move we're doing and his choices, it's too much.
I do have to say, I made a huge step by calling in on him, at least I didn't go into the enabling process like I would have in the past. So that was a huge step for me to take complete control. I told him I'd do it again in a second if I had to.
Thanks for listening, once again.