HI YY and welcome to the boards!
I understand all the emotions you're feeling. My husband is an addict and we've been through all the ups and downs of his using and recovery.
Check out some of the power posts at the top of the al-anon and nar-anon boards. It will help you understand some of the roles we've been playing and ways to get off the rollercoaster. As Matters said, we also have our own recovery to deal with and work on.
Take care and keep coming back!
Hugs,
JG
Last edited by journeygal; 05-30-2003 at 04:36 AM.