RocksAnn:
I too have a 24/7 beer man in my life. Goes through an 18 pack daily. My head knows that I can't stop it, slow it, or alter it in any way. But, letting go is far, far easier said than done.
It is truly hard to imagine that these folks perfer alcohol to being with their families and doing normal things, but the evidence is that's the case.
BRAVO! On your decision to quit drinking! Don't know how difficult that was for you, but your health and well being are better off.
Keep coming back. We have so many experiences in common here, even if you can't "fix" your situation, you'll at least be able to rid yourself of that feeling of losing your mind.