That's good, Jsnake89t. The more you focus on yourself and your kids, the more you will evaluate the kind of relationship you ACTUALLY had with your AW. The very best thing I did was get space from my now exAH and I realized the peace and calm that came with being away from him. I thought beforehand the space that we'd work it out, but after being away from him for even a few weeks, even with 3 kids including a newborn, that life was such much better for all of us than the insanity I'd been living in for years.