Originally Posted by
Mummyto2 
Hi sorry you are going through this, you need to put yourself first and don't let him keep worming his way back in, there is nothing you can do to keep him clean, he needs to want that himself and by knowing that he can keep running back to you that is exactly what will continue to happen, put your foot down and say no, look after your own well being, there is a family and friends forum here that will support you, wishing you well
thanks for this. He is saying/was saying he will get clean and stay clean. I have allowed him to come back through all those episodes even when he was not using. I am really not doing ok. After him stealing and crashing my car I thought I’d be able to put myself first, but I put so much into getting him off the streets and realizing that at the end of the day his commitment to me meant so much, that I chose to stay. And now he has disposed of me like I mean nothing.