I'm so sorry tummyaches.
I was/am an alcoholic but I wonder why I survived addiction and other friends I knew did not.
I still don't have an answer.
I can't really subscribe to 'they died so I might live' thing, but I certainly took lessons from close friends passing.
I'm making the most of this second chance.
This is a place of great support tho - I'm glad you've found us
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