Good job on quitting again. Alcohol addiction is so painful. It's unfortunate that you poisoned yourself again. I believe drinking is a form of self harm, like being a cutter, for some of us. Going to the doctor is a great suggestion because if you can get a clean bill of health, or a serious warning, either way it would encourage you to stay quit. For me, I think that I never should have ever drank any alcohol, ever. Now that I am sober and my body and brain are healing, I'm getting back to where I was before I ever tried alcohol. And I know that I never should drink alcohol because it is a deadly poison. Time to neuroregenerate, for both of us!