Hi TC,
My advice is don't see your recovery as a fight but a positive life choice for YOU and your loved ones. Everything's easier for me now I've accepted this.
Work the 12 steps, if that's your bag, and come out the other side shining like a new dime. Afterall, when you choose to live each day sober, there's so much less to go wrong and so much to go right in your life. It's taken me a while, but it's great to wake up feeling good and smiling rather than forcing poison down my throat, weeping because I didn't want to do it anymore, feeling so poorly, but didn't have a say anymore because I had to do it.
Life on life's terms is good for now and I'll take that!!!!
Good luck