There is so much smart advice here already- I'm sending on some support to you, too, Sam.
Something that helped me- I can only control my own responses to others/events. I can never control what people do or how situations out of my control may affect me. I already know drinking only makes everything worse- so that's never even an option. Having gratitude about being in control of my own responses and acting in a manner that I can be proud of promotes further sober behavior. Living in control of my own actions and without regrets for my behaviors is at the top of my list when it comes to why I remain solid in my sobriety.
You can find a sober life and stay with it- it is worth every effort to never drink again.