The guilt hit me pretty hard in the beginning.
I was watching a movie with alcoholics and drug addicts in it and I saw myself. That could have been me on the screen. They were not in a good place. Neither had I been.
It all looked so damn foolish to me all of a sudden.
I spent most of my life just being foolish and ignoring everything and everyone I had.
At one time I looked at those characters in the movie and admired them. Look they are cool. They're badass.
Suddenly they were foolish. I was foolish. A fool.
I had taken everything and everyone for granted. There is No Way I can ever make amends for what I have done.
I came here and made a post. I was feeling as low as I could get.
With support I found there is a way.
The way I was shown was to become the man I should have been for all those years.
To never take anyone in my life, or even life itself, for granted.
We cannot change the past but we can steer the future.
We Can become that person. Others will surely benefit from it also as they suffered for the way we were they will benefit from our growth.
It starts with a non negotiable rule to never drink again. No Matter What