Originally Posted by
Steely 
I loved how you said, "Addiction is not who I AM, it's what I did because I was afraid of who I am."
Yet it is the thing we wanted most.
I sought out a chemical solution to my spiritual problem. My soul wanted to be free and honored and human, but I kept pushing it back and caging it in. That caged spirit was miserable, but I had lived captive to other’s desires for SO long that I didn’t even recognize my bonds. Alcohol and drugs temporarily freed me. But at great cost.
Ironically, I now know that there was never a lock on the door to my cage. I just had to see it. And get out.
Today I AM FREE.
Imperfect, impatient, a little messy, sometimes anxious. Just human. And that is what I’m supposed to be!!!
Substances showed me a 2-D video of freedom, and let me think I had escaped. But no one is more trapped than a person sitting still, staring rapturously at their screen.
Sobriety, and FOREVER commitment to leave behind that false escape actually allows me to swing the door open and experience freedom.
I am never going back.