Hi Sam. I can't really add much to what Anna & fish said - I wholeheartedly agree.
I drank for nearly as long as you've been alive. I went from social drinking to dependency over the years. I never imagined that I'd be an all day, every day drinker - but that's what happened. So - you're wise to be taking action now. Trying to normalize or manage it is never going to work. I turned my life into a chaotic mess. This never has to happen to you. Glad you are here - keep posting. We care.