I agree with Anna, never ever give up.
Definitely discuss the charge with new employer if they have an issue with it.
Whether or not you get the job drinking will most definitely not help.
It won't make them change there mind.
It won't get you the woman you deserve.
It won't make you the person you want to be.
It won't make you happy.
It Will however,
make you even more miserable.
Keep you from being the man you want to be which will keep you from meeting the woman you deserve.
Which will make you more miserable which will make you want to drink more. Etc
But I have a feeling you already know all of that.
I was stuck in that alcoholic depressive mode for over 3 decades.
Poor me. Yay me. Meh me.
Whatever the me of the day it was worth a drink because there was nothing else to do. Because I deserved it. Because life sucks. Because life is great. Because I'm happy. Because I am not happy. Because whatever.
When I actually drank because I was an addict.
All that other stuff was just my Addictive Voice telling me what I should do.
Even when I realized I was killing myself and causing the destruction I did not stop.
Until I did
You can too. Today.
Just don't drink today. No Matter What
That is the only way I got through the beginning. My AV told everything it could think of to change my mind. After listening to that fool for 3 decades it was a default.
Except I had the only sensible answer ready for it now.
No. I Don't Drink Anymore. No Matter What
You will go through a bunch of feelings. Physical and mental.
Whatever you do just don't drink because of or in spite of them.
It Will Get Better.
If you really want to quit forever there is only one way.
Do Not Drink. NO Matter What.
That gets you sober and clear headed so you can work on that life you want.
The rest is up to you.
Live the life you want not the one your AV wants.
It's too short to not enjoy it fully.
You're a young man. I wish I came here at your age. So much damage could have been saved but oh well. I am here now and so are you.
I have found no better place to be around folks who understand and support each other.
Stick around man. You are worth it