Nine months was a very good start. But alcoholism is a life sentence. That is a fact, and we are still alcoholics even when we feel invulnerable, healthy, and rid our addiction. And this very freedom we worked so hard to achieve can also be fertile ground for our AV to tell us we are now OK to drink. And so we proceed with every intention of drinking in moderation like a normal person, not like the alcoholic that we "once were." Unfortunately, we will always be alcoholics, and believing we are cured is one of the most insidious pranks we can play on ourselves. This in not necessarily a matter of wanton dishonesty with self. It can also be a simple lack of understanding about our permanent condition and what we must do to achieve life long remission. We are never cured. The best we can do is stay in remission. Have at recovery one more time, and remember how easy it is to forget what you've learned. Best wishes for the future.