HI irondoorknob...
In short the booze directs our thinking, our actions and our whole way of living. - for me alcoholic thinking was placing drinking number one priority in my life. The last few years I HAD to.. Not only did I have the mental obsession but also a physical addiction.
No matter how much I loved other people, no matter how well I knew right from wrong, no matter how much I lost ------ no matter anything -- I did what I needed to do to keep drinking. This included, lying, crying and begging forgiveness, promising most anything, stealing, cheating and the list goes on..
Once sober - not many of those things changed. I simply was not putting booze in my body.. IT took a lot of work and a lot of help to find what I needed to bring about a psychic change in my life so that I could - not only not drink - but learn how to live with not drinking... And that is the hard part.
You got some real good feedback here and I hope it helped..
Linda C.
SS 5/23/80